The problem is I fell in love with a person

Instead of an idea

I can't casually listen to her favorite artist

Because it chokes me up to the point of tears

I can't make an old joke, or say certain words

Because it makes me shake to the point of damage

I let myself love someone real, someone alive

Forgot to protect myself, I forget to wrap my mind

In thick armor so I wouldn't get hurt by lingering thoughts

But she filled up the empty spaces in my soul

And now I can't get the scent of her out of my clothes

I misjudged the distance I would fall

I just wish we could have fell down the rabbit hole together

And stayed wrapped in each other at the bottom

My dreams are filled with her too, and its so obvious

That I can't even begin to let go

Maybe because I don't want to