Author's Note: This was a difficult story to write. I read four novels on this, one movie, and one TV show. Addiction is something that my family has never experienced. I have lost many friends to drugs. They were nice people until they made friends with a substance. This story has been rated "T" for substance abuse, touchy subject matter, and content.

Chapter One: Falling

They say that falling in love is one of the best feelings in the world. They say that when you fall in love, your entire world changes as you and that person become one.

Ha, I guess my world did change whenever he stepped into my life, but it wasn't for the good. He has caused me nothing but trouble. I knew he was trouble when he first walked in, but I just couldn't let him go. He has forced me to do things that I haven't wanted to. He has made who I am now and I'm not sure if I like it or not.

I suppose that I fell from grace and all that fun stuff, but I did change. I did change. I've made friends, I guess and I have made people come around to see my point-of-view. I guess I am a stronger person now, not that I wasn't before.

I guess it is true that you have to fall to find yourself. To lose your way and come back to reality, I guess is finding yourself. Man, I've gotten deep over the past year or so. How did that happen?
"Are you ready?" my roommate, Elena, asks as she appears in the doorway.

I look up from my book. "For what?"

"Megan's here and Brian said he'd be down in a couple of minutes," Elena says.

I close my book and curse. How could I have forgotten about today's meeting! I'm the one who put this thing together, after all.

Elena smiles at me. "You'd better get your act together."

I smile at her. "Or what?"

Elena shrugs. "I guess we'll just have to see."

I get off my bed. "I guess we will."

I follow her down the hall. I guess you could say that everything is going okay now. I guess you could say that I am better, but he still haunts me. Why can't I just get him out of my head? He's supposed to be in my past, but, yet, he's still there.

We step into the meeting room. Brian and Megan are already there. People being on time really bothers me, because I'm always late. Couldn't people be a little late, just to be nice?

Brian leans forward. "I've been thinking about what you said before, Jezebel."

"And?" I ask as I slid next Megan.

"I do agree with that something does need to be done," he goes on. "However, I don't feel that I am the one to do it."

I roll my eyes. Here we go again. I really do think that Brian is the one needs to fall again.