I'm sorry, GOD, for the times that I forgot

what it meant to truly be alive,

for the times where I

would turn my

head away

from the sky

and pray that you

couldn't see me eyes, and

the way that they burned so bad all night.

.

I'm sorry, GOD, for the nights that I would

cry, asking You to let me die

because I wasn't able

to sit at the table

without

wanting to slit my

wrists against the edges

and hang myself from the

window that the bright moonlight shone through.

.

I'm sorry that I tried to go to heaven

before it was my time to go.

I just wanted to see

Your face

before I did something

stupid enough that I would

never see Your light from down where

.

I'd end up. I'm fed up with the way that

I can't say I'm fine without

it being a lie, and

I find that

when I look to the

stars in the velvet night,

I can't lie to You when I look You in the eyes.

.

I'm sorry, GOD, that I want to stop existing.

My mind is twisting itself apart,

and my heart is so

damn fragile

that it

combusts at

just the slightest

touch, and I wish that You could

take me home and fix me and send me back to

.

where I came from. It's some cosmic joke

that the angels are laughing at.

I bet that they are

cackling

at the

fact that

the broken toy on

Earth is asking you to make it

whole when it will always be shattered.

.

I'm sorry, GOD, that I'm tired in every way.

I'm sorry that I'm a lazy piece

of shit, and I know

that I curse

too much,

and that I

ramble when I'm

nervous, and that's the only

reason why this poem is so damn long.

.

I'm sorry that I'm not a good song.

I'm sorry that my melody

is fragmented,

and that

the staccato

notes are stuttering out a

fractured harmony when it's not supposed to.

.

I'm sorry, GOD, that I don't want to change.

I like being broken, but I want

You to fix me anyway,

because

that's

what my

Mother thinks is best,

and She loves You so much, She

deserves nothing but the best from Everyone.

.

I'm sorry, GOD. I'm a bacterium

asking the greatest

thing in the

universe

to make it

better as a favor when

I don't deserve the light of day that

.

You so graciously give to me.