I had a few requests for something similar to Time Doesn't Always Heal, so this is as good as I'm gonna get for now.
Sorry of you had higher expectations.
Sorry in advance for an mistakes.
Enjoy.
Everyone has something or someone that reminds them of home. Be it, your best friend, your first love, your memories, even a smell. In my case, it's...Pain.
Heart-wrenching, gut-twisting pain. It's not physical, but it hurts like a thousand needles stabbing your heart.
Ever so slowly, you learn to grin and bear it. Like a plaster, you rip them all out. you'll break down, of course, because mending isn't a quick process. You'll heal and forget.
But - if I've learnt anything about Fate, is that she has a horrible sense of humor. She loves making things come back and haunt you.
First,you might hear a voice you recognize. Next, a familiar face will pop up on a stranger's.
Then it really starts. You'll wake up before dawn.
Sweating.
Panting.
Screaming.
If you're lucky, no one will hear. But, if you're like me, and Fate seems to love messing with you too, you'll have 'caring', nosey neighbours come running to the door.
Begging you to let them in.
Eager to know 'what's wrong?!' with the girl next door.
Dying to find out 'what happened?!' to gossip about.
'Nightmares,' you'll tell them, smiling and waving them off.
It only Fate was so kind.
They're not nightmares.
They're worse than that.
They're memories.
Memories of that past that hurt you.
Memories of those who've died.
Memories of those who've betrayed you.
Memories of those who love you.
Memories of a happy family.
You can't let them get to you.
You haven't before. Not now.
Not never.
You can't tell anyone. That's the same as giving in.
Keep it to yourself.
Take it to your grave.
Try to do what you're parents couldn't.
Have a normal family.
No step-parents.
No half-siblings.
Be a happy family.
Even if you have to suffer to keep them all happy.
Do it.
Be.
A.
Normal.
Person.
Forget.
The.
Unhappy.
Things.
Always.
Happy.
Not.
Positive.
Happy.
Grin and bear it.
The pain.
The memories.
The suffering.
Keep it in.
Let it fizz inside of you.
Like when you shake a bottle of soda.
Let it fizz.
And fizz.
Until you pop.
Until you break.
That's how you survive.
That's how you live.
With the pain.
Keep it in.
Don't let it get to you.
Show it your better.
And when you have.
You have.
Permission.
My.
Permission.
Fate's.
Permission.
To.
Die.
Yui xxx