Dear God, I'm Tired

I'm tired. I'm so damn tired

Of watching my mother fall.

I'm tired of being strong

And standing tall.

~o0o~

I'm tired of getting my hopes up

And watching them shatter right before my eyes.

I'm tired of wondering when I'll find the difference

Between truth and "I'm fine."

~o0o~

I'm so damn tired of scrambling in the dark,

Trying to find a light to grasp.

I'm tired of breaking down and getting up;

Tired of hearing myself speak in rasps.

~o0o~

I know you see me balancing on the edge

Of the world that you gave me.

I know you see me trying to fall

While begging someone to save me.

~o0o~

My lifeline is fading away;

She's a treasure fading from my trembling hands.

Someone weakly whispers "It'll be okay,"

But their voice falters and fades in these abysmal bands.

~o0o~

God…

I'm so tired…