Trying to Drown
It's been one month since you went away.
They're talking about death and drowning;
About how they're friends.
I wish I could drown today.
I'm trying to slosh on
Through the tears you left me in.
I'm just sinking and sinking,
But neither Heaven nor Hell's lights are blinking.
It's not my time to break; I only bend.
Crash down like a tsunami wave.
I'm trying so hard to find solid ground,
But the sands and tides toss me around.
Not one part of me do they save.
In this one month,
I hope Heaven gave you a really fine crown.
It feels so damn empty without you;
Life gives me nothing to do
But live while trying to drown.