Trying to Drown

One month.

It's been one month since you went away.

They're talking about death and drowning;

About how they're friends.

I wish I could drown today.

~o0o~

I'm trying to slosh on

Through the tears you left me in.

I'm just sinking and sinking,

But neither Heaven nor Hell's lights are blinking.

It's not my time to break; I only bend.

~o0o~

Empty forevers

Crash down like a tsunami wave.

I'm trying so hard to find solid ground,

But the sands and tides toss me around.

Not one part of me do they save.

~o0o~

In this one month,

I hope Heaven gave you a really fine crown.

It feels so damn empty without you;

Life gives me nothing to do

But live while trying to drown.