Always with Me

"I'm a simple person who hides a thousand feelings behind the happiest smile."

Could I have done something?

That day, forever burned into my mind.

"She died."

Those words that I kept muttering,

"No. No. No."

Rereading your last status,

Rereading the last message I sent you.

Why didn't I say something else?

Was there something else I could have done?

Accepting there was nothing I could do,

I think about your friendship,

I think about the way you always encouraged me.

I think about my future,

The one I always spoke to you about.

You're not with me anymore on this planet,

I don't message you every day anymore.

But, you're always with me.

RIP My Best friend

The status at the top was the last Facebook status my best friend made. Some will say that depression is visible, that you can tell when someone is going through something top. You can't. You can't always tell what someone is going through, or how they're feeling. At her memorial, many people kept saying they had no idea she was in a place so dark that the only way out was to end her life. It's been almost two months since I last spoke with her, going from talking to someone every day to not talking to them anymore has been the hardest thing I've ever done. If you are reading this, and you feel like what I've written about, please talk to someone because there is always someone there to listen to you.