ever longing, ever seeking

searching...

searching amid a sea of faces
_ a sea of unknown faces
searching for someone
searching for a certain someone
_ _ _ _ someone wanted
_ _ _ _ someone longed for
_ _ _ _ someone needed

searching for a sense of peace
searching for a sense of comfort
seeking for a mother's love
seeking for a mother's care

a daughter seeks for her mother's love
_ _ _ _ _ _ expressionless
_ _ _ _ _ _ emotionless
continuously searching
forever seeking

the girl's gaze passes over
_ _ _ _ many people
_ _ _ _ many faces
_ _ none are the same
_ _ no one her mother
_ yet all are dressed alike
one by one
all have the same build
alike in every possible way
_ _ except...
_ no face the same
and the girl continues to seek
no one gives heed to the girl
_ _ the little girl in the school yard
_ _ _ _ _ _ no one even cares
_ _ _ _ _ _ no one tries to help
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ and the girl does not ask
_ _ _ _ _ all she does is seek
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ expressionless
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ emotionless
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ save the longing in her eyes

without her mother there
_ _ _ _ _ the girl is lost
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ without love
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ without care
_ _ _ _ and yet
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ the girl continues to seek
_ _ _ _ _ not because she wants to
_ _ _ _ _ _ but for the longing in her heart

_ without her mother there
_ _ _ _ she cannot love
_ _ _ _ she needs her mother
_ _ _ _ who is hardly there
_ _ _ _ _ she needs her mother's love
_ _ _ _ _ _ so she can go on

she cannot go on without her mother's love
_ _ _ _ for without
_ _ _ _ _ _ she is lost
save the expression in her eyes
_ _ _ _ an expression full of longing
_ _ _ _ _ _ haunted longing
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ persistent searching
the girl is lost
_ _ for her mother is not there
_ _ _ _ _ _ not there to offer hope
_ _ _ _ _ _ not there to offer love
_ _ _ _ _ _ not there to offer anything

_ and without
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ the girl is lost
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ completely lost

until she finds her mother...
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ until then she is lost...

her mother must be found someday
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ so the girl can be herself once more...
and until then
_ the girl will be searching...
_ _ her gaze passing over everyone
_ _ _ _ until they meet with the eyes of the one they are seeking...
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ those belonging to her mother
one she nearly never sees
_ _ but will always recognize...
until she finds her mother,
_ _ _ _ _ the girl is lost.


[undated]