I can smell you on my clothes, in my room, on my skin. I am entranced by the... by your scent, by your everything. Being near you, or anything that vaguely smells or looks like you makes my heart beat fast. The way I feel for you is nearly beyond words, and that incomprehensibility is both a blessing and a curse at times. *hmphs, and shakes her head* Even my own thoughts are a mess when you are concerned... And yet, I write this to try to gain some kind of minute hold on anything that deals with you.

I guess I'd better start and end with the most primal of these thoughts. I don't know how to take you. Some days, I feel like you want me... days like today when you flirt with me to no end. Or at least it feels like flirting. Other days I feel like you want nothing more to be as far away from me as you can. As if the mere thought or sight or smell of me repulses you. *sighs* I wish I knew what you were thinking in either case. Do you like me? Do you hate me? Are you afraid to touch me?

Our friends all said you want me - that you're going to ask me out soon. But every day that goes by when you don't, I feel more and more like you don't want to be close to me. Why can't you just stop this madness? Reject me or accept me. Don't make me wonder... don't continue to make me cry every night as I wonder if you're going to avoid the subject or approach it the next day. Take me or leave me, just end it. The stress itself of not knowing will kill me before you get around to saying anything.

I can smell you on my clothes, in my room, on my skin. I am entranced by the... by your scent, by your everything. Being near you, or anything that vaguely smells or looks like you makes my heart beat fast. The way I feel for you is nearly beyond words, and that incomprehensibility is both a blessing and a curse at times. *hmphs, and shakes her head* Even my own thoughts are a mess when you are concerned... And yet, I write this to try to gain some kind of minute hold on anything that deals with you.

And this has only made me more frustrated and confused...