Written 03/06/2018


Tell Me

Tell me

How I should feel when

I look in the mirror and

All I can hear

Are the sounds of judgement

"Lose ten pounds in a week with this diet!"

"Use this shampoo and your hair will be rich and glossy."

"Get the clear skin you deserve!"

And hatred

Tell me

What I should do when

I go outside and

All I receive

Are loathing comments

"Have you gained weight?"

"You should take care of yourself better."

"No wonder you don't have a boyfriend."

And criticism

Tell me

Who I should listen to when

All I can hear

Are the lyrics of haters

"You're not good enough."

"You will never be enough."

"You are worthless."

And cynics

Tell me

What I should think when

The only support I have is from

Disbelieving parents

"It's just a phase, you'll get over it."

"I am so disappointed."

"What's wrong with you? I don't know what happened."

And 'friends'

Tell me

Where I should go when

The only places I go to

Are school

"No wonder you don't have friends."

"You'll never be good at this."

"Everyone hates you."

And my house

Tell me

Why I should keep living when

People keep judging

"You looked prettier when you took care of yourself."

"Do you even eat anything?"

"What did you expect?"

And criticizing

Tell me

When I should leave because

I don't want to die but

I don't know how long I can bear the

Pain and

Suffering

Tell me

How I should feel

What I should do

Who I should listen to

What I should think

Where I should go

Why I should keep living

Because

I can't figure you out

What do you want from me?