Chapter 3

Finn wondered if Lindsay was thinking about the same things he was thinking about as they sat next to each other at the Baltimore Airport waiting area.

"Do you think we'd still be together if Ted hadn't transferred?" He asked.

Lindsay shrugged her shoulders. "I'd like to think so," she smiled.

Lindsay put in her notice a few months after she and Finn started sleeping together. Her ex had accepted a job transfer to Georgia and he convinced Lindsay that she should find a new job down there too so Alison would have her father in her life. Finn was devastated, stunned that his lover would choose the wishes of her ex-husband over their love affair but she said she was a mom first and that she needed to do what was best for her daughter.

"She needs her Dad in her life," Lindsay said. "I have to go."

Finn cried that day but he didn't put up a fight. He knew he couldn't offer more than what Alison needed in her life: a father. Ending the affair was painful as his dreams of a future with Lindsay were ruined. On her last day at work, he walked his lover to her car and she pushed him against it and kissed him goodbye.

"Ted's been sick," Lindsay informed Finn as they sat in the airport. "It's been hard on Alison."

"I'm sorry to hear," Finn replied.

"It was good that she had a relationship with him all these years," she said.

"Yes," Finn agreed.

"Thank you for that," she whispered. "You gave up just as much as I did by letting me go."

"I missed you for a long time," Finn admitted.

"Me too," she sighed. "I try not to think about those days too much. How I acted during the separation and divorce. I'm ashamed at how unprofessional I was. I put everyone through a lot and I'm sorry about that."

"It was a difficult period in your life."

"I couldn't focus, I couldn't shake it off, I was falling apart," Lindsay recalled. She stared at him with fondness. "And then you saved me."

"But it wasn't enough," he sighed.

"I was sad for a long time when I left Providence," Lindsay said. "I missed those times. I missed you more than you'll ever know."

"Do you ever wish we could go back?" Finn asked.

"It was real at the time," Lindsay said.

"But not now," Finn realized.

"Not now," she whispered, leaning in and kissing him on the cheek.

"We'll always have Providence," Finn smiled bravely.

"Your attention please, Delta Flight 243 for Atlanta is now boarding at Gate 7," the gate attendee announced over the public address system.

"That's me." Lindsay smiled as she stood.

Finn stood too. "I really did love you, you know," he said.

"I know," she said warmly. "And I really did love you. A day doesn't go by when I don't think about something you taught me at work as a professional or told me as a friend or gave me as a lover."

He nodded, leaned in and kissed her on her cheek. "Goodbye, Lindsay," he said. "It was really good to see you."

"Closure," she said knowingly, echoing his earlier sentiment.

She squeezed his hand before walking away and he followed her with his eyes as she handed the attendant her boarding pass. She turned to look at him one last time, giving him the same wave before disappearing down the ramp.

Finn returned to his original seat at his gate across the way and he smiled as he remembered Providence. Providence, of course, meant Lindsay.