I can never remember

the date

though I remember

where I was

what I was doing

and who I was with.

.

The date

used to distress me.

Did I not care enough?

But lately I realized

you were gone long before

that date

the day you called to say

goodbye.

.

It's an odd thing

to cry in the shower

nearly ten years later.

Your cheeks don't feel any different

but your eyes and mouth

are stretched tightly across your face

and your heart is breaking

like you just hung up the phone.