/AN : This is two parted, with a time skip in between, and that's why I made it as two chapters

I Hate You (part 1)

If I was a poet I'd tell how beautiful your lies were
If I was a romantic I'd tell how beautiful your eyes were
But as I'm only me I'll settle on I hate you

The love and care, a friend huh
Not that I believed
I wasn't born yesterday
We laughed and smiled, your stupid jokes
Maybe I did believe
But that died yesterday

If I was patient I'd still be waiting for your call
If I was cleverer I wouldn't think about you at all
But as I'm only me I very much hate you

Trust lost in confession, some friend huh
Not that I believed
I wasn't born yesterday
The brief moments, gentle soothing touch
Even if I believed
All that died yesterday

If I was someone else maybe I wouldn't be here
As that someone else could cherish memories dear
But I'm still only me, and I hate you
with passion rooted deep

Wordless goodbyes, not friends huh
Not that I even cared
That had ended yesterday
Faint reminder, the memories flooding
Even if I cared
I can't return yesterday