i think there is something wrong with me
no, i know there is something wrong with me.
but this thing is d^i^f^f^e^r^e^n^t
because it seems everything is crumbling
the will to live.
there has to be s_o_m_e_t_h_i_n_g
wrong with me
because i used to be at
these sort of things
i used to be g o o d at friendships
i used to always be smiling
i used to be happy...
i should be happy
i s;h;o;u;l;d be
so why aren't i?
i have a good l i f e
i have good grades
not all amazing friends
but i have a f e w that i'm sure
would do anything for me? (maybe)
so why do i still feel h=o=p=e=l=e=s=s?
and everyone just tells me that
i control my feelings, i just have to
"take a deep breath"
but they don't know.
it's not as easy as just
how do you think positive when your
h~e~a~d is filled with d!a!r!k!n!e!s!s?
how do you take a deep breath when your
l.u.n.g.s are c/o/l/l/a/p/s/i/n/g?
how can i be happy when i'm
saying bullshit like that isn't going to c u r e my head
but then again, it's like some also say
my head can't get s i c k
after a l l , my head can't c*a*t*c*h *a* c*o*l*d
silly old me
didn't realise that
i am not p?r?e?t?e?n?d?i?n?g?
don't say i am