For You
(..My apologies and best of wishes)

I opened my eyes
You were here
I closed my eyes
I didn't feel you near

You were an illusion
You were a dream
For my selfish amusement
Your eyes gleamed

I dressed you up
My perfect partner
I missed how it was
One sided, not heartfelt

Truth hurts
But a lie'd be the last I wished
Reality, it burns
As it was I who made it twist

The closeness, the familiarity
A one so much alike
The drift, the uneasiness
A one too much alike

Never wanted a mirror
Still searched a soul torn
Looked inside the filth
Glaring my own self-hate and scorn

Now I that opened eyes anew
You weren't there
But as I shut them tight
I wished I felt you near

Mistake, mistake, mistake
Please come yesterday, please come undone
My love, my love, my love
Never lose your heart, even as mine is gone

You aren't me
You'll never be
You're beautiful
More than most can see
I want you flourishing
Wish your dreams come true
Rid your heart's undernourishment
And for you...to be loved as you