A/N: I've not done an edit of this chapter, but I really just wanted to post it to get it out so I can start on the next one, which will be Sean's New Year's Party! This chapter went a little different then I'd originally aimed for so I hope it's alright! Also because I know someone is as keen as I am to see the Bucket List (well I've already seen both :P) that's you Jaxter07! I want to deliver! :D But of course, slow and drawn out, or I'll at least try!

Jaxter07 - thanks for the review, good motivation to press on as this was something I'd done on the spot with not much thought! Also the follow :)

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I'd been staring at this list for what felt like hours. The things Stacey had written were so not things I could do, there's no way I'd be able to do any of this. I know, I know. I agreed and I really do want to do something different, get out of my box but how? Maybe it's the thought of having to do them in the next 5 weeks that gets me the most. I don't know if I can. Maybe Stacey could, but I can't, there's just no way me, of all people, could.. But isn't that the point?

My phone vibrated over and over, as it had been since I'd stormed off from Stacey's house yesterday. I felt terrible ignoring her but what kind of friend would put things like that on my bucket list and then have me pledge to complete them? She's my best friend shouldn't she know me better than that?

Maybe I overreacted a little when I stormed off and ignoring her is just making it all the more worse but I don't know. Maybe it's unfair of me to do this to her, after all the point of the lists were to make some good memories together and I just left.

The thought of doing any of the things she added absolutely terrifies me but maybe that's a good thing. It's like the more I stare the more exciting it feels, like I could actually do these? Well, with some minor adjustments of course. And well maybe it's time, maybe it's time to stop holding myself back? As she said, "it's the time when it's ok to fuck up", I can't just let this chance slip by, can I?

Ugh I don't know, it's so scary. But I want to change, I need to change. I want to be me, I really do. I want to be more comfortable with myself but the idea of changing and doing these things… they're scary. I don't want people to look at me and think badly of me, to think I'm weird or gross.

Are these feelings normal? Oh God, I'm so terrified by the thought of actually going through with these yet at the same time I'm actually quite excited. Why? Why is it so scary, won't this all be nothing in the future? So it probably couldn't hurt, right?

UGH, I really don't know what to do. Well actually, there is one thing I really want. I want someone I can be me with, someone I can talk to about anything, someone I could do things with, is it normal to think like that? I want to hold hands, cuddle, kiss

Could I really do something like that?

I continued staring at the list, maybe, just maybe I could do this. I want to do this, but how?

I was still rolling over everything in my head when I suddenly felt like I was being watched, as I switched my gaze from the list towards the door I was met with a pair of ice blue eyes.

"Oh, so you look pretty keen for that list."

"Why are you here?" I tore my gaze from hers and instead fixed it to the ceiling. Why did she have to come now of all times?

"Well, my best friend angrily left my house yesterday and has been ignoring me ever since, so the only way I could get in contact with her was by physically dragging myself to her house. Oh but, on the plus side she can't avoid me if I'm right in her face." I heard the door close and after a few soft steps I felt my bed sink as she sat on the edge.

"Sorry, I-"

"Nope, don't even start." She interrupted, "I'm the one who is sorry especially about what I did. I guess you weren't ready and I did say that I wanted the bucket lists to be something as a way to create memories of us, together. What I added wasn't of things for us. You don't have to do what I wrote, I just thought maybe if I could, ya know, encourage you to like actually live or something but I probably went about it the wrong way."

"I've thought about it over and over and you know what? You were right. I'm weird, weak. I can't do anything like this on my own. It's hard and maybe I'm a little scared but, but I want to do this. It's just as you said, now's the time I can fuck up and have it be ok so yeah, I can do it. I will do it. I want to be different, I don't want to continue being the same old boring Mia." I sat up and met her eyes, "I do however have one condition."

The blonde looked at me curiously, "Which is?"

"Out of fairness, I want to add a few more things to your list."

"Is that it?" She opened her bag and pulled out a folded piece of paper and pen, "If that's all you want, then who am I to say no? Besides everything you added will be easy, I need some sort of challenge."

I smiled as I grabbed her list and the pen. Oh I've had plenty of time to think about this and I knew exactly what I was going to add to hers, to even out the playing field of course. I added another 7 things to her list and oh were they beautiful. I felt my grin widened as I handed the pen and paper back.

"HEY! WHAT IS THIS?" She looked at me, absolutely appalled.

"Something wrong?" I giggled, "come on, you said you wanted a challenge, didn't you? Oh and #15 is perfect for just before Sean's party!"

"You are pure evil." She sighed as she folded the paper back up and tucked it in her bag, "But, it does sound like fun… I'm just kidding, literally none of that sounds fun, what the fuck is wrong with you, Mia?"

"Ah, is this what they mean by revenge is sweet?"

"What're you doing today?" Stacey leaned back on the bed, closing her eyes.

"Nothing. Well, I do want to add some more things onto my list now that I've spent all night and this morning dreading it. Why's that?"

"Fuck," She breathed out deeply, "Let's go get 15 over and done with before tomorrow night."

"What, right now?" No way she was serious, she wanted to do that now?

"Not everyone is a chicken like you Mia!" She said playfully opening her eyes and looking at me, "Besides, I showered just before I left to come here and it's as you said, it'd be perfect to have it done before the party tomorrow. I'm sure Jarryd will appreciate it too." She winked at the last part.

"Darn, you're actually serious? You're really going to do it, like right now?"

"No time like the present, right?" She grinned.

"I- well I don't even know." I paused, "Okay, let me get changed and then we can go. Guess I'll be driving."


15. Get a Brazilian wax }:) [x]