Full of uncertainty

Mind in desperate places

Waiting for you to fill me

But you've left only empty spaces

/

It's not your fault

Though I'm sure you cannot believe me

Crippling insecurities have taken place

Where your heart used to be

/

There are things you don't understand

How the pain I feel is revolting

Yet so strangely appealing.

How the blood I bleed is terrifying to you

But endlessly pleasurable for me

/

This is never what I intended

I've loved you from the start

But the whispers in my head are getting louder

And now I realize what I could do to your heart

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It's a torture no one deserves

Except for me, of course

To bear the pain of regret

And watch this love become perverse

By the power of my own curse

/

This is goodbye

To your dreams of yesterday

And my hopes for tomorrow

To the masquerades of romantic endeavors

And the feel of every pleasure

/

Today, I face the end

With a soul, that's caved in

And a body condemned

To another place, I shall go

Far away from human heartbeats

Where it is I don't know

But it is far from you

/

I apologize for my carelessness

For the tears and slit wounds

For however you may feel

When you find me cold and bitter

/

Even if you can't forgive me

I hope you always remember

That'd I'd rather be here

With you