Sometimes I just feel like I'm a mess of a human being. No good at anything. Oh I practice if I'm no good at something, but just don't feel like I'm cut out for it. Like flamenco dancing. Okay, I'll probably get a little better as I have more lessons, but right now I feel like a hopeless loser because I cannot for the life of me get to grips with some of the steps. I end up getting all panicky and just completely lost.
Honestly, not even sure why I took it up. Do I enjoy it? Kind of. At least there's only two or three of us at most in the group, which means I don't have to worry about complete strangers laughing at me messing up all the time.
No, I do enjoy it. When I get the hang of it, anyway.
I guess I give up too easily? Nothing comes naturally to me. Socialising, finding a job, fitting in...just all seems difficult to me. Don't really understand how other people can do it.