And so , I started walking, the whole world seemed dire, but the sand under my feet felt fresh, after all this years in shoes, now walking bare foot felt a new. I could not understand why all of these people were running and screaming, it was the end of the world, the end was here and there was no god to save us, or maybe it was the god who wants us to die, regardless, a fresh sand under my feet, desert hot wind blowing on my face. I stare at the second sun blazing down towards me, maybe I should have called to Marie and how I wish I could spend those last hours of her life with my mother. Kale told me that she was asking for me plenty of times, asking where I was, what I was doing.
Mother, I am coming to you, or maybe not, a person like you is most definitely in heaven now, and god knows where I am going. Ah its already burning my face, why did I live my life the way I did, what was the point, to die in the middle of nowhere next to some forgotten town, alone, lost and empty, the reason why can still smile, I think is that this new sun has burned away my sanity. Facing certain, death, god, I will now yield, I do not regret anything that i did, I regret everything that you made me do, I regret that I lost 4 years of my life drinking because you killed my only child. I regret killing that man in a bar fight, but it was you. It was your fault that I had to do it, you made him fall on that glass, I did not know that would happen when I pushed him, I did not mean to kill him, but you turned me into a murderer. I close my eyes because it is too bright, I close my eyes, so I can take my last breath, before I face you.
Hurry it up and end, I cannot keep my smile up any more, please just let it all