The hollow ache that never really quits

The quiver of the lips

The quiet night

Sinking ever deeper; away from reality

Hiding while showing

Screaming yet laughing

Craving a tender touch but locking away so much

A complex contradiction constantly changing

Confused. Acutely aware of fear

Logic over want

A lesson taught too much

How simple it must be to not realize what's underneath

Ignorant. It's better that way

For layer after layer there's a thick wall

But your words are like spears to jump in front of

A sweet pain that's craved

Then down and down the walls fall

How fearful, vulnerable it feels

This little bit of humanness; quaking my being

How nice; it hurts

I like it; stop

What's so bad; I can't

I love you

Help me