Title: Misery and Suicidal Thoughts

2/4/18


I care for almost everything you fight for,

I care for almost everything about you.

But the one sure thing I can stand for,

Is the fact I'm wishing I were dead and you being with me.

You care nothing about me

You want nothing to do with me

I fuck up everything I touch, if I could end this today I would surely say

Goodbye world

So long-

Xxx

I don't understand why I do this,

When its easier if I fall asleep.

Perhaps being 5 feet under.

I can nap until I see.

xXx

Whatever you fight for

Whatever you lost. I can asure you and say

I wasn't me

Because everything I was

I was to me was nothing short that I mistake

I screw everything up

I fuck everything I touch

Why is it do so to step the calmest of actions

The sweetest of dreams.

Now it'll falling back sharply onto me.

xXx

If I hung this noose

If I stab this flesh

If I poison theses veins

Can I sleep?

Cause the only remorse

I can have in my dream

Is knowing they're all going to end bleak.

xXx

I care for almost everything you fight for,

I care for almost everything about you.

But the one sure thing I can stand for,

Is the fact I'm wishing I were dead and you being with me.

xXx

I'll tell why Im still alive. Oh.

What a terrible reason it is. Oh. (lower voice)

It's a psychological disaster.

It's because I'm too

Damn weak!

xXx

Whatever you fight for,

Whatever you believe

I can guarantee it wont any longer be me.

Xxx

I can't believe you stayed with me for this damn long

It's ashame, somehow so to speak.

If ever I was happy

Or mildy inpeaked,

By the idea that later I could sleep

Well maybe I could move on,

My nap sort of waits,

For my dangling head to rest in peace.

xXx

If I could tell you how much I wished

I were dead then that would be stalling

How much longer I live.

I wish out every fuck up.

Out of every mistake

Out of everything I couldn't keep.

That you somehow, if only if maybe

I wish you could go to bed with me.