You were my solace

A breath of air

A gasp of pleasure,

More than anyone has ever given me

The idea of intimacy, security, value,

Someone who loved me

Really

Loved me.

With no modifiers.

I'm sorry for the way

that I took you for granted

And chased freedom with such vigor

That I forgot the golden promises I held

All the things that you gave me

And your love, that was more

Than a good love.

God, it was the best love.

It's always the best ones that I lose.

And I never deserved to have you.

But I loved you.

And I never got the chance to say thank you.