I feel trapped.
I feel cornered.
I feel caged.
I'm starting to lose hope which isn't like me.
My so-called blood relatives have betrayed me and abused me
But God forbid, I do it to them.
Yet I still help them.
I must be stupid.
My heart is breaking into a million pieces.
I can feel a mask forming again.
I can see a wall going up again.
I can feel the darkness I have kept at bay forming again.
What did I do deserve this?
Am I at fault for this treatment
Or are most families this way
I suppose I will never understand.