The very first one.

I stare dearly at him

Like I have never done

With anyone else

I enjoy looking at you

You bring me peace

You're undoubtably good,

Love (sometimes I feel the urge to call you that)

My biggest fear is that

You'll never realise it

It saddens me thinking you're not being cherished

The way you deserve to be

But you're happy

I know you are

You told me so

And I'm happy for you

I am

It just hurts

It simply hurts knowing that it is what it is

And not much can be done

Be happy, will you?

You deserve all the best

And more -

It just hurts, you know?

Knowing I won't be the one giving it to you

Somehow forever.