I can't take this anymore.
I can't stand this feeling.
Of feeling emotionally drained.
Whenever someone tries to take me down.
Accuse me of wrong doings that I never did.
Belittle me for things beyond my control.
And for things that I myself cannot help.
I'm tired of it all.
Tired of feeling worthless.
Tired of feeling stupid.
Tired of feeling awful.
All I am is guilt tripped.
For the things that have happened.
In the very distant past.
And being told to put up and shut up.
I'm tired of being told to shut up.
Tired of keeping things bottled up.
Tired of feeling pressured.
Pressured to be perfect so to say.
I keep pressuring myself to be flawless.
Which, of course, is an unrealistic expectation.
At least it is for me.
My mind is scrambled.
It too is tired of overthinking.
Of having these negative thoughts.
And unrealistic expectations for me.
It can never give itself a break.
Which is what I require.
Along with my soul.
It too is in need of rest.
As it feels rather empty.
As if there was something missing in my life.
I hate feeling empty inside.
I hate these negative feelings.
I hate it all and wish for it to burn away in flames...