Author's Note: This poem/song/whatever-it-is was inspired by the book The Prisoner of Zenda, and by the character of Michael in particular. But then it went off in its own strange direction. So here, have a sort of fantasy poem about someone plotting to usurp their half-brother's throne.

burning rage

My god, how did today go so badly wrong?
I thought my plan could never fail.
It was such a fine idea, I thought:
Publicly disgrace that pest, and take his throne myself.

Dear god, what a trying day it's been.
Those glaring lights make my eyes ache.
So here I am: no throne, no crown, no triumph now;
Just a ruined plan to learn from and try again.

And if you ask, why should I try again?
Let me tell you what that is.
Because I am the first-born, the heir by right,
But he has my crown and my throne and my life!

So I must try and try again,
Fall and get up, fail and discover,
To lose, to fight, to sin, to despair,
With a smile on my face
And this burning rage within my heart!

I'm my father's oldest child.
I was born ten years before that brat,
But I was never brought to live in the palace.
My mother had a manor and Father paid her to never leave its grounds.
As far as the world knew, I did not exist.

When I turned sixteen, they finally brought me to court
Where I met my father's wife.
She pretended I didn't exist, and they all followed her lead,
And I never had a chance.

My brother grew up a selfish brat; he always hated me
And I returned his hatred with interest.
When Mother finally died Father gave me land and a title too –
But without any power and with no voice at court.

I have this house, the only thing that's truly mine,
Where I'm king of all that I survey.
But when night falls and I'm all alone,
The lights outside seem a world away.

The people of this land pretend I never lived.
They and their world can burn to ash!
But I will get my throne and I'll get my crown,
And they will never erase me or my life again!

So I must try and try again,
Fall and get up, fail and discover,
To lose, to fight, to sin, to despair,
With a smile on my face
And this burning rage within my heart!

Just you wait, I'll get all I want –
No, I'll get all I deserve.
I have so much information my brother doesn't want know.
And when he thinks he's safe and sound,
Watch me pull him from his throne!

So I must try and try again,
Fall and get up, fail and discover,
To lose, to fight, to sin, to despair,
With a smile on my face
And this burning rage within my heart!