Juggling is not a past time I partake in,

particularly when it involves

juggling people,

yet here I am,

my eyes flicking

between three conversations:

one with a girl,

one with a boy younger than me,

and one with a man

almost 10 years my senior.

.

I almost can't remember,

can't differentiate between

who lives two and a half hours away,

who has as a dominatrix,

who lives close enough

that I can meet them in person.

.

My best friend jokingly calls me a slut,

but I am wont to indifference.

Slut shame me all you want,

but my panties stay

exactly where they need to be,

outside of her goddamn business.