"what do you want then"

"No- I-"

"What did you want,

don't lie."

"I stopped having thoughts."

.

No spiders heights or snakes

not even monsters or ghosts

it's whom I love the most

I don't want to hear three words,

unrelated to love

or hate, the middle is in the past tense

and the first is to address

I try to find some who believe it

or agree with me

even a breath's echo is now enough for pushing me

in one of two senses, I'm done I say let go of me.