Been so long since I last seen you
Yet sometimes when I close my eyes
Drifting myself off into darkness
I can see you standing right in front of me.
It frustrates me to no end
That you still linger on in me
Not sure if it was because I had a crush on you
Or my pride was damaged by you.
Everytime I see you
I can't tell what I'm feeling
I know it's nothing crush wise anymore
Yet the other world pulls us into that direction.
Cant say I don't miss having a rival
Yet I don't think it was good for me
Since I kept putting myself down.
Don't think I was improving myself
Since it was for the wrong reasons
Of just seeing you lose to me.
Your other self
Gets to me each time
Either wanting to be near me
Or just wanting to get rid of me.
Luckily you are slowly going away
From my mind
And from the other worlds
I created as I close my eyes.
But I still wonder
Why are you still here
Taunting me too in my head
As I finally start to focus on myself more.