I can see swirls of darkness

In front of me

Waiting for the right moment

When I can let it in.

So many things I want to say

Yet I rather just stay away

Letting things get to me

Since the guilt catches me all the time.

I know I haven't been myself

Cant seem to shake it off

As the questions keep flowing

Of if is who I'm suppose to be.

I hope I'm not getting

To the point of no return

Yet the darkness keeps coming closer

Licking away at me.

I'm trying so hard

To get the answers

That are locked away in deep inside me

Yet it's hard to fight my way down there

As the memories tend to haunt me too