An Ode to the One I Lost
Should I begin with an apology
One to assert this ending?
I know it was dead to you
Even before I knew.
I'm sorry I wasn't "enough", I'm sorry I didn't "try".
I'm sorry you felt I didn't care
That you mattered to me no more.
Yes, it's just your "problems"
You thinking you're fucked up
You deserve none, you need none
When you're nothing but a tired soul.
I tried my best, I know I did.
I bowed as low as I could,
Listening, begging, waiting...
But I'm tired, no, I'm exhausted
And seems like you can't understand.
I don't blame you, you think everyone leaves-The ones who love you, the ones who need you
The ones who tried for you...
It's what you know, its what you believe And I'm sorry, I can't make it change.
I hope one day you'll see you're more,
Far more than a mess of scars and nightmares,
That one day your fears wont hold you back no more.
I hope you'll understand I didn't stop loving you,
I needed some love for myself.
I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough for you, my love
I'm sorry I couldn't show you the you I see-A universe to explore and adore But...
This is farewell for now, I can't anymore. Maybe we'll meet again one day, and make a better lore
Till then I hope you live, love and try to be more.