p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Blurb : a world where different sexualities and gender identities are represented by different kingdoms. A world where allies are literally just that. Read about Florist Chang as she journeys to become one. All reviews and feedback are welcome./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 1/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Ok so I'm not exactly sure how to start this off. I've been meaning to keep a journal. But I never really bothered too. I guess since I'm about to start training for the Allies it may as well be a good time to start. Though, I'm not sure if it's a good idea. To be honest, I'm not sure why I keep writing. You don't even know who I am. Then again you are a book, so I don't quite know how you would. Ok I guess it's time for introductions then. Hi, my name's Florist. I live in the Kingdom of Dime. I realize not everyone knows about Kingdoms other than their own residents. So I should probably tell you about it. In history we're taught about "The Separation". When society was separated based on identity. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"A long time ago their was a fight for equal rights. The logical solution by then America which the kingdom of Rohet was to send people of a differing identity away. To send people who were of a sexual or gender minority away. The kingdom of Rohet became a place only for the straight. Only the heterosexual. Only for the cisgender. Anyone who was caught outside these lines would be carted away to a different kingdom. The kingdoms were monarchies given to lead representatives voted on by the citizens of Rohet at the time. We didn't get a say. Things were always shaky to start. They weren't even kingdoms at first. But after the first democracy fell monarchies were established. They kept order. Kept people believing in something. Kept the law just. There were many riots and chaos but ultimately Rohet won. Crowns were given and we were divided. Our resources separated and the kingdoms established./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We are often taught about the Separation. How the government was just in doing this. How the civilians were so unjust with their laws and chaotic demanding special treatment that it was the only option. How the riots and the protests led up to the serration. It was the only way to keep order for the people. We are often taught about how Rohet saved us. But we aren't taught about the lands that "The Separation" divided us into. Since I am studying for the Allies I know all about them. This was special information given to me in preparation for my training. To be honest I'm lucky to know this information. I can't tell a soul./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"The government of Dime like the government of all kingdoms monitors what it's citizens partake in media wise. It like all the other kingdoms also monitors what we say and what we do. The Kingdom of Dime controls the media we see and partake in. One of the rules of the separation was contact between kingdoms. No kingdom may have contact with each other. Only the heads or the official officers could do that. In many ways that's what I'm training to be. An officer of the separation. An ally. A result of this is that we may not learn that other kingdoms exist. It is forbidden knowledge the allies and other heads of authority may know of. If people learn of other kingdoms they may wish to visit or leave their kingdom. Every member of it's nation is to stay within the nation. No but's if's and's or otherwise./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"The realm of Dime contains people who identify as Demisexual. In my Kingdom, we do not experience sexual attraction until a deep bond is formed with our love interest. We only experience sexual attraction to those we are close to after we've become close to them. Otherwise, we experience no attraction . This is the Kingdom of Dime. It was originally a subsect of the Kingdom of Cae however upon riots and rebellion from citizens of Cae against Rohet and it's treatment of the Cae one of the punishment was new formed colonies based on identification. These colonies were eventually rebranded after civil war and given purpose and justifaction within eyes of the law as the kingdom of Dime./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"This is where I'm from. I know that training to be a representative and studying for the Allies, is a lot of work. And I know I may not be chosen. However, I feel like the Kingdoms are interesting in their own right. I find them fascinating and it's hard to believe we never studied about them in school. I want to learn more about them. I mean I know about them but I don't strongem"know"/em/strong about them. I want to experience first hand what they do. I realize the only way to do this is to become a member of the Allies. I only found out about the allies by my assigned caretaker working for the government in the first place and deciding I a perfect candidate since adoption. To visit the Kingdoms is my dream and I honestly need to fulfill it. So that's an introduction to me. I hope this journal thing works out. I don't know if it will or won't but I plan on writing about my experiences in training. That's why no one else can see this book. It's a secret. If anyone found out...I could face execution or worse…I could be sent to Tissfim. That doesn't matter though. I decided to take the risk so here I am. All that matters is that I'm Florist Chang and this is me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Journal ENTRY 2/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Alright training starts tomorrow. I'm not sure how to feel about it. On one hand I may finally have a chance at visiting other kingdoms, on the other I will encounter all new environments completely foreign to me. Not only that but due to "The Separation" I have to lie. I can't be open about my sexuality when I visit them. I have to go undercover incognito. I have to be sent to behavioral training so I can match what the kingdom ofspan style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanRohet and the allies program deems the other kingdom's citzens to behave and act. That's a terrifying thought. Here everyone just accepts that you are the way you are but not in other kingdoms. I know it's a long shot that I'll be one of the Allies. But I still fear the implications of becoming one. Monitoring. Reporting. Spying on what would be friends and reporting misdemeanors. I don't know what to do about these thoughts. About these fears. But I know it's something I need to face. Something that is going to be a challenge but also something I need to take head on. span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI want to leave. I want to explore. This is the only way to do that. So here's to me. Going forth into training./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 3/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Alright so I'll be leaving for training this afternoon. I realize I keep talking about the Allies and my training and you may not know what that is. Most people are even unaware of our own history. Often the government changes it and reissues based on what the allies deem appropriate or the most peaceful approach. Without the allies we truly would be lost as a people. But I suppose I'll get on with it. The Allies is an organization originally founded after "The Separation". It is an organization that has over fifty different representatives for over 50 different kingdoms. At the age of thirteen we live within the Kingdom of Question that was shortly established after the war. There we take a test and have our behavior monitored and we are sent away to another kingdom forbidden to speak of Question and our experiences there ever again. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"It doesn't matter if you like the results. They are based on arbitrary things anyways. They put you in a blank room by yourself show you pictures and ask you questions and then based on their idea of what you are you live your new life. I was very lucky. Dime just fits me. I'd hate to think what would've happened if I didn't fit precisely into the measurements of the box they assigned. Once we complete the test we're sent to a kingdom accordingly. However the kingdoms need to know who's being sorted and to where. They need communication with each other. They need to know if their citizens are misbehaving, monitor them and stop any havoc or possible revolts./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanThis is what the Allies do. The Allies have one reprehensive from each kingdom (with exceptions) and they handle all political and social justice issues. We're kind of like undercover cops. Bred from a young age since our time in question with special caretakers to take on this level of training. As apart of the training we get to go undercover in five Kingdoms depending on what we choose to look out for, the types of behavior we wish to stop and who we choose communications with. This is a big deal. It's important and it's a high ranking position./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanOnce your chosen you even get to meet the Empress of Rohet. I can't tell you how incredible that would be. There are several people who are allowed to train for the allies. I was allowed this honor. The training process itself is a little different though. It takes place within several Training Grounds located in the realm of Tissfim. I don't know much about this land. No one really does. But we're sent to different grounds there. We won't get to interact with any of the locals or even get to leave the grounds much in the same way you can't leave your kingdom but it's still an amazing experience. I leave this afternoon. I'm a little worried a little anxious and a little scared. I'm not sure if I really want to go through with this sometimes. But it's ok, don't worry about it. I know I may not be ready but I've trained for this. I can handle it. Ready or not I'm going. Wish me luck./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 2: Chapter 2: new friends/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTERY 4/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So I arrived today and the first thing they did was check my backpack. To be honest the security for the training grounds is kind of a joke. No one takes it seriously. I mean it's a high-tech facility so you would expect an intensive search. However this was not the case. I'm not sure why that is. On the bright side I was able to smuggle in this journal due to these circumstances. I forced it through a rip whole at the bottom of my back pack where it remained in the lining. I didn't know if that would work I had no plan on how to bring you in beforehand, I had only hoped for the best. All my life I've been told what an honor it is my assigned caretaker chose me for this./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"All my life I was given special opportunity because of my experiences in Dime. But I know that in retrospect the grounds don't hold much of what I was looking forward too. This is not of the stories of legend I was told since my adoption. This is not the max farcicality I expected. I thought it would be a high level security base. But instead it resembles a real life camp. I don't get it. This bothers me. It upsets me. On some levels it disturbs me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I was the only one who seemed to be from the Kingdom of Dime. Regularly there are at least two trainees who attend, but I'm the only one. This whole place is a bitt off putting. I entered the grounds I headed to registration. There my government assigned caretaker and I filled out several forms. Once done I made my way down to a bulletin board which contained a sheet that listed several names and the cabins said names were assigned to. I think I have it here hold on./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Cabin Numbers 10- 20 assignments/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Ase cake. Cabin 15/span/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"If your how I got the list, I asked for a copy. I was surprised they had a spare on hand. When it comes down to this list there seems not to be any rhyme or reason to it. I don't see the point in organizing a list this way. I trust that their doing their jobs to the fullest extent however it does worries me some. As I said before this place is off putting. Once I had my cabin number I went straight there. Apparently I had forgotten to collect my uniform. I was not aware this was apart of training. The only uniform required is a shirt that contains the color of my land's flag on it. We wear this shirt everyday with whatever accessories and, pants we please, it seems. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"My shirt had one large white stripe at the top, one small purple stripe in the middle, one large grey stripe at the bottom with a black triangle on the left side. I got several pairs of the same shirt. I was told not to deviate or accessories and that this shirt would be the only individuality allowed. I was told that I wasn't here to make friends but that I was here to learn and only learn. The counselor explained to me that we wear these shirt's so other trainees can tell what kingdom we are from and learn a little a bit about the behavior of other kingdom's participants./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI don't see the point of this to be honest. I'm familiar with several flags from several lands but not every single one that exists. I also do not have every single flag memorized so I doubt other students would as well. Regardless this is how they run things and I have to respect their order. I wasn't sure about coming here, and now I feel I know as to why. Despite these stern warnings at the beginnings it's a very casual place. It feels a bit like being in a hospital. Or in recovery I guess. It feels like you are on vacation but it also has a sort of isolated feel. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Once I was at the cabin I met my roommates. Patter Amad, Robin Nomico and Adrian Shwarts. They all seemed to be nice. I don't know If I'll get along with them. I don't know anything about them really. Granted after Patter told me that I needed to get my uniform I did so but immediately afterwards I came to write in you journal. I can be anti social it's true. But again that's not a flaw. I don't have many flaws if any at all to be honest. I'm not perfect but I like to think I'm pretty great. Despite that though not everyone cares for me and that's fine. I just hope these girls due. Anyways this has been my first day here. There will be some events later like an assembly and a few classes but I think I've written enough about my experience today. As always I'll see you next entry./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTERY 5/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So I've been hanging out with Patter a lot lately. She's really sweet. She always compliments people which I find a little odd but it's nice hearing the compliments. Granted I know all of this already, but it's still nice to hear it. Patter is also really pretty. She wears a shirt containing different shades of pink. The uniform shirt she wears contains the colors of the kingdom of Ohmo. I thought the flag for that kingdom was rainbow but apparently, theirs two different flags. Covering her hair she wears a some kind of scarf that I've never seen before called a Hijab. In my opinion it makes her look kind of cute but maybe that's just me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"She tends to talk a lot often rambling about different tv. shows or social networks. I wasn't aware their kingdom had social networks. I thought that was a dime only thing. The government allows you one or two Dime based networks. Where you can interact and be monitored in correlation with other Dime residents. But her kingdom had four. That's astounding. I don't know what I would do with four of those. It seems kind of redundant to me. The two is enough. Everybody uses them and it's easier. If theirs four it overcomplicates things and must be harder for the kingdoms to keep watch over. It seems pointless and like a safety hazard if you ask me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I don't really find those sorts of things interesting but she talks about them with a passion. She seems really invested in them. She also goes on a fair deal about something called "Fan-dum" which I don't know much about. I tend to zone out when she talks about it. Apparently it comes in different shapes and forms but I'm still not to sure what it is. Patter has strong values. She believes in communication and community. It must be something more so valued over there./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI think she could explain it to me if I actually listened. Sometimes we hang out with her self proclaimed "best friend" Andre. But he normally hangs out with Adrian. I'm pretty sure they're dating, though I'm not certain on that. It's forbidden. We're not techinqually supposed to be buddy buddy with each other. We're supposed use each other as sorts of tools. I look at Andre to see how Stran people act. I look at patter to see how Ohmo people act. And so on and so forth. God this place is nothing like on the tin./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Oh I don't know if I mentioned it but we have classes here in the training grounds. We were each given a schedule after the assembly yesterday. Luckily Patter and I have a lot of classes together so that's how we started hanging out. They announced at the assembly that in three weeks theirs going to be a dance. It's a training exorcise or that's how it's framed but everybody here seems to be acting like it's a literal dance. I don't really care for parties. I don't see the point in going. Patter thinks it's going to be really fun but again training exorcise. This is meant to emulate stuff they have in oterh kingdoms. In Dime we don't do dances. You're normally assigned a living mate who you then grow to be closer to after a long period naturally. It's kind of like government assigned romance. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I guess if I go with Patter it might be nice but probably not. Especially with that many people. I don't like large crowds. I'm don't know what about them sets me off but I don't welcome them. In other news living in the cabins is a bore. I don't really care for it. I mean Patter's there so that's great but theirs not much to do. Don't forget this book is a secret so I normally have to wait until everyone's out of the room or it's really late to write in you. It's messing up my sleeping schedule major. Because of such I'm often bored with nothing to do. Patter spends her time writing and drawing comics. It's one of those hobbies she has. She always says that her comics are bad I quite like her art style. I think she could make a career off of it if she wanted. That's not something she's interested in perusing though. Now I would go on but my hands cramping up from writing so much and it's three in the morning so I'm going to go. Talk to you in the future./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 3: Chapter 3: the allies/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 6/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I've come to the realization that I only spend my time with Patter. This is beginning to concern me. Patter is amazing, don't misunderstand me however I feel as though I am not familiar with any faces besides hers. I feel as though she is my only friend. Reminder that we're not even supposed to have those. I talked to her about this and she offered to introduce me to more people. I took the offer and now I've met two new individuals. Dylan Lopez and Canine Brook. They seem interesting and had unique appearances as well. Dylan sits in a wheelchair and his shirt contains the colors of the land of Nap, pink yellow and blue. Canine really stands out to me however. He wears a raimbow sweater-vest with a light blue tie and bright yellow pants. His skin is the colour of uncooked marsh mellows. He wears the colors of the kingdom of Ohmo similarly to Patter. It looks like he hand stiched his sweater. I wasn't aware of that. Maybe the kingdom of Ohmo treats it's trainees better then dime. When I met them they were holding hands and looked quite sweet. Dylan tends to go on and on about different bands. His favorite band to my knowledge is an ancient group called Disturbanceathedancingplace. I think that's the name however I could be wrong about that. He likes to sing as well, and he hopes that if he doesn't get into the Allies than music would be a second career for him. I don't think he realizes that given how far he come if he's not chosen for the allies he'll be executed or sent to tissfim. He seems to also care for animals quite a lot. Apparently he even brought a furry companion with him to the Grounds. I don't know how he got away with that, but since he's nice I don't think I'll question it. Though there both very welcoming it was very awkward talking to them. They are nice but I always have a hard time talking to strangers. I hope I'll get to talk to them some more so that they'll stop being such./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 7/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I think I'm doing really well with talking to more people. I've started to get to know my roomates a bit more. I've really taken a liking to Robin. They seem perfect like myself. Calling yourself perfect isn't egotistical right? I know I said I wasn't but I think I might be. Probably not. Anyways I started to realize that I never really examined Robin's appearance before. They wear a shirt containing the colors of the kingdom of Stran. Green white and purple. Like the kingdom of Ohmo it has more than one flag. I wonder if they also have colonies? They have oddly styled bangs and short hair. They wear a hearing aid in their left ear. At first I thought they were a girl and I feel bad for misgendering them. However they have since alerted me that they are agender meaning that they don't identify with any gender, and prefer gender neutral pronouns. I feel bad that their stuck rooming with Patter,Adrian and I. Robin told me that trans often served as a safe haven for it's own people. They told that Stran despite this often was given anybody who deviated between any sort of gender norm regardless of whether or not they were actually transgender. They told me that Stran has been given limited recourses since the serperation and that because of it Stran was struggeling to survive. It was a low income kingdom for the mockeries of society. That's how Rohet saw it so that's what it was sentenced to after "The Separation"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Dime has a more complicated history. We were never really meant to exist. We sorta were just created as a form of justification for the people who were already here. Robin often seems tense. The whole pronoun thing threw me off. I've never meant somebody who went by they. I don't get the whole transgender thing but apart of the allies program for me is being open to different ways of life. I need to be open to this. Because if not what good is my training. I might be sent to Stran to monitor. So I have to be okay with this you know. span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI live in Dime. I was almost sorted into Stran because I have short hair and present more boyish. I don't like girly stuff it's just not me. Robin told me that's one of the issues with the test. span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanThat stran do to the misunderstandings and lack of input from the kingdom often got people who simply didn't fit x or y gender roles and that in many ways a positive result one of the few ones they added was that it was a safe haven for gender expression. They seemed really worked up about it. They congratulated me sarcastically on getting sorted "correctly"./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We all identify as female but they were put in our cabin. Robin mentioned off handedly that the allies are a laughing stock and so is Stran so that's probably why this happened. Stran "doesn't get special rights" is what they said. That was a motto of "The Separation" and thus was the motto of the training grounds. The motto of the allies. It was used as political fuel. I remember my caretaker showing me a poster as a history lesson of a time where America said that during the event. Robin is a bit sarcastic. They are also very very blunt. They look like a girl so that's why I assumed they were female at first. I want to apologize for misgendering them but I'm not quite sure how to do this. I feel bad but I have no idea. Just because I don't get why they are like this doesn't mean I have to let them know that or have to be a dick about it. I know I'm flawless but people who are perfect still make mistakes. This is going to be on my mind for a while. I'll ask Andray what to do. After all he is Patter's best friend and in the same kingdom. I hope this turns out well./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 8/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So Andray just said to say sorry. That's it. All I have to do is approach Robin and tell them I'm sorry. But still, how do I approach them? You're not sentient, you are book, so asking you is not going to do me any favors however it feels good to vent. It's just so frustrating. I know this should be like apologizing for anything else but I don't want them to emknow/em I feel weird about it. This is their identity. Their strongidentity/strong. It's important to them and I invalidated it. I might just come across like I believe it. Which I do but I don't want them to feel like that. I remember my caretaker telling me some people don't believe aces or demisexuals exist. So I know what it feels like to be stabbed that way with emotion. I am not an asshole. I'm not doing that to them./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I just feel like crap. I don't even know how they feel about this. Do they hate me? Do they think I'm worthless? I got something so fundamental about them wrong. Maybe I'm overthinking this. I don't know. But this has been on my consciences. I know most cis people would shrug it off but I'm not most cis people. I actually care. I think maybe I just need to approach them. Like maybe just go up to them and say it. Say sorry. I know that would be quik. But I'm not sure how else to do it. I'm sighing to myself because I'm not sure. Ok. That's what I'll do, I've decided. Hopefully this will work./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 9/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So I apologized and they thanked me. It means the world that they weren't angry. I'm so glad I didn't offend them. I really like them so I'm glad that they weren't hurt./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Anyways I've started eating lunch with Patter and Andray. Before I was eating lunch alone and even though I've been spending a lot of time with Patter she only recently started inviting me to eat with her. Andray seems really nice. He's from the kingdom of Stran much like Robin. Though unlike Robin he doesn't seem to be agender. He might be transgender but I'm not sure. He presents as male and goes by male pronouns but I'm not certain. I think I should ask him but I'm afraid that might be a little rude. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Remember how I wrote that I was the only trainee from the kingdom of Dime? Well theirs about six different trainees from the kingdom of Stran. I'm not sure why they need so many different trainees but theirs a lot. Andray told me that there were smaller kingdoms partially monitered by the main kingdom. Each with it's own unique culture and the like. Being a trainee and getting this opportunity to train at the grounds is a rare chance. I don't know if you realize that journal. It's a one in one million opportunity. Just getting the chance is rare. So I'm even lucky to be here at all. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Because of this I find it odd that there would be so many different trainees for one kingdom. That seems out of place. Granted the land of Stran is a kingdom I don't know much about. So I should probably not bother with it. Andray often talks about musicals and plays. He has an affinity for theater. His favorite musical is an ancient one that I think is called The Wikeds. I always have a hard time with names but I'm pretty sure that's what it's title. It's about a witch. I'm not really sure what else there is to it besides that. He told me it was banned in Stran for showing rebellion but he somehow got ahold of it. He's not a fan of the separation and patter and I gave him loks when he said style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanHe was super casual about it too. Apparently it's common in Stran to be upset with the government and it's handling of identity. "Strans treated like shit by other kingdoms. We have no recourses or anything. I don't see an issue with just stating facts" Patter told him to bite his tongue. She looked around nervously. "just because we agree with you doesn't mean we condone this language" she said in a hushed tone. She was hyper vigilant. I've never seen someone so on edge in my life./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Andray has dark skin a deeper than Patter's and dark curly hair. On top of his head lay a Jewish item known as a Keepah. He was told not to wear it on the training grounds and so was Patter with her hijab but the grounds are so lax very few people get on them for it. Patter says she knows a few staff members who have her back and Andray follows Patter like a lost puppy dog. He wears his Keepah everyday for what I assume to be religious reasons. He wears many different colors on his assigned shirt. The flag of his land goes blue stripe,pink stripe,white stirpe,pink stripe, blue stripe. I've never seen a flag like it. It's very pastel in my opinion. However I have seen several student's wearing a shirt with said colors. He has bright eyes with large eyelashes. I think their really pretty. He doesn't seem to have any acne or any blemishes at all. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"From what I understand he's dating Adrian. However he doesn't spend much time with her. Him and Patter get along really well and they always talk to each other. Unlike myself he actually cares about "Fan-dum" or at least cares enough to listen to her when she talks about it. The two seem really close. They were talking about the dance today. Andray apparently isn't going to go. He's been skipping his classes with only a brief slap on the wrist. He doesn't find those kinds of things fun, much like myself. However Patter is super exited about the exercise. It's more of an emulation rather than an exercise but still./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Now that I think about it, it's hard to find something that Patter isn't super exited about. After lunch we went to our classes which I don't talk about because their's not much to them. They're like regular school classes. However, unlike school it's the same people in each class. No one seems to like me here well, besides Patter,Andray,Robin, Dylan, and Canine. But for the most part I'm not friends with anyone else. I feel isolated in my classes. It doesn't help that we are only learning about the Kingdoms and their histories. Which let's be honest, is kind of a bore. I thought we'd be learning emulation tactics or behavioral training. But nothing. The more I spend time here the more harshly aware I am that theirs a reason the training program is a joke. God what did I get myself into. I mean I love the kingdoms and their histories but only learning about the kingdom's and their histories can become tedious. I guess this program isn't as dramatic as I thought it would seem. And that's alright. I think I'm going to go. I need start sleeping more. Night./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 4: Chapter 4: secrets/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 10/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So the dance is in a week and it turns out that were obligated to go. Apparently it's because it gives us exposure to history and the emulation is in many ways a test for the counselors to see how we engage with other trainees. This urks me but I just can't put my finger on as to why. But again it's how they run things. I'm really not looking forward to having to go. I don't really look nice in dresses. Or anything that show's off my body for that matter. I'm not exactly thin. I have a plump figure I weigh around 230. Theirs no shame in that but I feel like people judge me for it. People like to judge me for my appearance more than you would think. They normally make snide remarks or at least they did back at my old school and, in my old kingdom. span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanIn Dime we don't put a big emphasis on what you look like regarding our relationships. It's just not that big of a cultural thing for us. In many ways in Dime we are very sex-less. In Dime people just don't tend to operate that way and it's far from the marketing. People who do think this way are ostracized. Sex is a no go topic. It's something private without much use in society beyond that privacy. This could be great and I could see some people really liking this but for me it's annoying. I mean I get annoyed with sex in general. But to never be able to talk about it. For it to be almost taboo. It's such a difference from Question where I grew up. Maybe it's only because I just left. Like all other trainees I'm 16. It's forbidden to talk about Question. As far as every kingdom is concerned Question doesn't exist. It's a no where zone./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"As far as the government's concerned your first 13 year of life didn't happen. You are forbidden to acknowledge them. You are ripped away from your friends and caregivers in Question and are never to acknowledge or bring them up again. Not only that but relationships are discouraged and the bonds we form are easily dismantled by people in authority. I never really got close to anybody. My experiences with Robin and Patter are my first real tastes of friendship and bonding. It's not just that way in Dime. It's that way in Rohet, it's that way in Ib it's that way in Nap. The kingdoms all kind of collude with each other with Rohet at the head. Rohet is in control of this. Hell, Rohet is responsible for this./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I used to think this was a good thing. Most people do. We know other kingdoms exist their just blank slates for most people. Something you can imagine about but never tangible idea of. But the more I learn of other cultures and everything that entails….the less okay I am with "The Separation" you know. It's so insane to me to think of a world where people of different sexualities just exist. A world that is the training grounds. It's so strange. Meeting people who feel attraction in ways I don't. It doesn't make me uncomfortable or anything but it's like alien. It's like these people were popped out of a fantasy nonvel or something. How other people can feel so different….it's so bizarre to me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We grow up isolated we don't *get* to have this. We for the most part don't know identity exists before the test. We don't even know the identities that exist before it. I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm conflicted. I grew up loving Rohet for "The Seperation" everybody did. We're taught that they were right to do what they did. That they brought order to an otherwise unjust and unvil anarchy that was society. But I just don't think I know that anymore. It's weird journal. It's very weird. But back to my training and my looks./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I know this is the Training Grounds so it's supposed to be more tolerant about acceptance and differences, but…I still have my doubts. I just don't want people to judge me for my looks. I'm perfect but in the past they haven't treated me like I am. No one treats me like I am. Knowing should be enough right? I don't know why I keep asking you questions, I guess I like to pretend that I'm talking to an actual person here rather than a book. I don't know just don't mind me. I think I need think this over. Talking to myself or you or whatever isn't really helping me at the moment./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 11/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So I talked to Robin about my dress issue and they offered to let me borrow one of their suits. They don't want to go either. No one does. Not even Andray. Then again from what I understand Andray gets some sort of attacks and crowds can cause them. I don't know much about Andray to be honest. I mean I've talked to him a bunch of times and know some of his interests. But him and I aren't as close as say Patter and him. Come to think of it, he can't even look me in the eye. Though Patter says that has more to do with him being on some kind of spectrum which again I don't know much about. It's probably a gay thing./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanRobin tends to wear unisex clothing so that's why they have an extra suit available. It's so weird how men's related items such as pants, suits, and blazers all tend to be unisex while for the most part women's clothing is only worn by women. I find that strange. Not sure why that has to be the case but it is. For most people its seems any ways. That's not to say that their aren't people who break the mold or the norm such as myself. But most people conform to gender roles and I've noticed that's just how it is. But back to the point I'm getting a suit. This will avoid the stares. I mean looking the way I do, people will stair regardless but it's still nice to give them one less reason. I'm not looking forward to this dance. I don't care if their forcing me to because of whatever reason they gave before. This is not going to be fun/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 12/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Alright so I went to the dance and it was terrible. It was full of people half of whom clearly didn't want to be there. It was so socially awkward. If this is what courtship rituals are like in other kingdoms I am very glad I was placed in Dime! I spent the night hanging out with Andray and Dylan. Then they both went to get snacks so I was left alone. But then something strange happened. Patter approached me. She looked nice in her outfit and everything she was wearing and we started talking. We were sitting really close. Then she put her hand on mine and eventually told me she liked me. Alright it was good finally saying that. To be honest the guys came back as soon as she did this. It way quite annoying. I didn't have time to processes it. They didn't leave us for the rest of the night. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Because of such it was really awkward between her and I. I mean I had no idea. I wasn't sure how to process it. It was well, I don't know what it was. I mean I like her as a friend but I'm not sure that I like her that way. She never showed any signs of liking me. I mean did I miss something? Am I just belatedly ignorant? How is it, I didn't notice? Is it even possible to even date outside an assignment. Everybody seems to be…. Regardless once the dance was over and we made our way back to the Cabin. I told her I needed to sleep on it. I'm not sure how I feel about this. I guess I could like Patter? Maybe as more than a friend. I don't know. Maybe sleep is what I actually need. I can't avoid her forever. Sooner or later I have to give her an answer. I guess I might like her. But still I'm not sure. I'm not sure about anything to be honest. Maybe I will sleep on this. Good night./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 5: Chapter 5:/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 13/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Alright. I told Patter that I just wanted to stay friends. Patter is sweet and all. She's really great, but were just not close enough yet. I haven't formed a strong enough bond with her. Maybe later if we do become close it'll happen. But as of right now I don't want a relationship. I'm demiromantic next to being demisexual so we just need to wait. Patter sighed to herself and just accepted this. I mean I thought about it. I considered it. I really did but I'm just not ready. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"She's such a good friend. I mean the fact that she can put her feelings aside and stay friends with me is something that I would never be able to do. Not personally at least. I admire that about her. Things have been slightly awkward since then. We haven't talked much. As a result I haven't been eating lunch with her or Andray. However I have been hanging out with Andray outside of lunch so I still get to see him. Lately I've been eating lunch with Dylan and his boyfriend Canine. They don't eat in the lunchroom because apparently the only way to enter is through steps. Dylan can't get into the room. I think they're happy to have more company. I am as well. It can be kind of lonely some times with just Dylan, Canine and I though. Sometimes I feel like a third wheel. Still it's better than being with Patter and Andray. Things have just become so awkward between us. It's almost painful. I just hope we can get past this and move on. I only can hope./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 14/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So I've been spending more time with Robin. I haven't been hanging out with Patter. Robin tells me that I just need to get over it. That avoiding Patter is not going to do either of us any good. But I don't know if they're right about that. I mean Robin is really intelligent after all their nose is always in a book, however I don't know if I should take this advice. I know that they're trying to help but this is something I need to deal with on my own. Robin doesn't really show affection so whenever they try to help it's usually in snarky advice. They aren't monotone but they are pretty close to it./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I know that they care but they're being awfully nosy. Although now that I think about it they might have a point. Patter is trying to pretend that it never happened. She's being really cool, but I'm not. I'm not sure how to face her. I think…I don't know what I think. Maybe it's the fact that it's one in the morning, maybe it's the fact that I'm not smart but I just don't know how to feel about this. I mean what would you do if your best friend told you they liked you? As in like liked you? And what would you do if you didn't have feelings for them back? I'm kind of stuck in a predicament here. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Nobody knows how to help me. Andray wants to stay out of it. He doesn't want to make things uncomfortable, even though they are. Robin keeps giving me the same advice over and over again and poking jabs at me when I don't take it. Dylan doesn't have any advice and Canine thinks I should date her. Seriously Canine was all "it's a missed opportunity" like that somehow magically solves my predicament. Canine is always by the book. He's super passionate about this program. I guess I don't know what to do. Maybe I should forget about it. Maybe I should let it go. I don't know. Though it was nice venting to you I am going to stop writing now. I'm going to go to sleep and make up my mind in the morning./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 15/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So I decided to take Robin's advice. I realize it's not the best advice in the world. But it's the only advice worth my time. Robin's a good friend that way. They always have my back even if they intrude on my business a lot. I recently invited Robin to eat with Dylan, Canine and I. We now have our own lunch group. It's quite nice that way. I've been talking to Patter some more and were doing well. Or at least I like to think so. I'm glad I'm putting all of this behind me. Anyways I've been focusing more on my training. For my training I chose to study the four kingdoms of Stran,Ib,Rohet, and Cae. I find Stran to be the most interesting out of all four. It contains people are Trans. Or in other words anyone who isn't cisgender. There are a lot of different gender identities that I was not aware existed before I studied this kingdom. Theirs two spirit, trigender, agender, bigender, gender fluid and that's only naming a few. I feel like I have a better understanding of Robin since tackling this. Robin doesn't really identifyspan style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanas a boy or a girl. They identify as nothing I guess? I had read of people using they/them/their pronouns before but it is still so weird for my tongue to wrap around. It's a gender neutral term. Apparently it goes like this. He went to the story, they go to the store, it's her birthday, it's their birthday, it's what's best for him, it's what's best for them. I know it might seem like a really weird thing using these pronouns and trust me it is but I mean it fits right? Not fully boy not fully girl so clearly not fully or he or she. It makes sense to me. Robin is the only nonbinary person I've ever met in my entire life so I really hope I don't fuck this up. According to Robin I'm not the most progressive when it comes to trans things but I don't see it. I am perfect after all./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"This kingdom is so rich with all of it's different identities it's captivating. It's also one of the most technologically advanced kingdoms. The kingdom of Dime is great. I love my home however to say that commoners like myself have access to updated technology wouldn't be truthful. But in the kingdom of Stran everyone has to said goods, and if not everyone then most everyone. It's pretty cheap there. The kingdom financially struggles do to Rohet not wanting to waste time on it seeing it more as a burden but I understand that it's still way more in the future than Dime. I believe Stran while home to many great creatives and inventors to be financially struggling and in a recession as of the moment./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanIt's so interesting. I find it incredible. I'm tempted to ask Robin about it. However I fear that if I do this, they will feel as though I am using them. I do not wish to intrude on their life. It does make me wonder about Andray though. I wonder what his identity is. I presume he's ftm transgender. Meaning he was assigned female at birth but identifies as male. But he's never told me so I don't know. Having learned about Stran apparently your never supposed to ask this. It considered improper etiquette. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"There are several questions you should not ask members of the land of Stran. For they can be rude to the people's identities. There is something you should always ask though when greeting a member of Stran and that is what their preferred pronouns are. It apparently keeps from misgendering them which they will respect you for. I love this kingdom. It's so interesting. Did you know that they have different sexualities there? Can you believe people with different sexual orientations all in the same kingdom. That's like trainings grounds times 11. When I say this kingdom is astounding I mean it. But I've lectured you enough about this. I must be careful with how much information I share. This is book is a secret but I have to be weary of it's content's due to if it were ever to be discovered. I wish I could tell you more but I fear I have already said enough. I guess I'll continue my lectures tomorrow. Goodnight./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 6: Rebellion/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 16/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Apparently in a couple of weeks there will be first term exams. This is to quiz us on our knowledge about the different kingdoms we've chosen to learn about. Although I'm learning about four different kingdoms my main interest still seems to be the Kingdom of Stran. Not only is it incredibly interesting but two of my friends are also from there. Andray can be awkward to talk to but to be honest he's really informative about ,it infact when I ask him he goes on for hours without stopping. Lately he's been telling me about sexuality and how it's handled there. Apparently because there are different sexual identities sames gender marrige is a hot button issue./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanApparently people of the same gender can't get married there. I think that's kind of messed up. I mean to say that Dylan and Canine couldn't get married but Andray and Adrain can is kind of a double standard. People can be denied their basic human rights. It might just be my Dime thinking here but wouldn't that create dycohtomy? Giving some people access to what others are denied. That can mess up social order and create dynamics we haven't seen before./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanWasn't the whole point of "The Separation" to eliminate special attention seekers and them demanding obtuse rights in the first place? Woudn't banning undo a lot of what "The Separation" sought to correct with chaos and the like? Isn't that how the kingdoms were formed? I know it's not my place to talk about this, it's not my kingdom however I feel that it's still wrong. I am very glad that we don't have that problem in my Land. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Regardless sexual identity is something that's not so simple as to be in black and white. The Kingdoms are organized based on that kind of ranking but I'm smarter than that. I know that it's more grey than we're taught. Sexuality isn't black and white. Rights shouldn't be put into said boundaries. Anyways my first quiz is on the kingdom of Ib. Ib is unique. It's not quite like Stran it's incredibly different. It's a sea lined kingdom with beachy shores. People who live there identify as Bisexual. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"There's a lot of conflicting reports about what bisexuality is in my history books. Because of such I decided to ask Andray since he is bisexual. He said that bisexuality is the attraction to your own gender and too different genders. It's not to be confused with Pansexuality which is the attraction to all genders but an emphasis on the person. So theirs a difference between Adray, and Dylan's sexual orientations. I'm glad he could clear that up for me because everywhere I look there's mixed messages. The kingdom of Ib has a different kind of system than any other kingdom. They actually elect lower positions within the kingdom. The Queen,King are still that. But any lower positions such as duke or princes are voted upon. It has a very large sea trade. It also has a great deal of pirates, theirs quite a lot of mythology that goes along with this land as well. They believe in the several gods over there. It was a government instilled religion. During "The Seperation" there were different methods to control the population instilled. Controlling the faith of all those who live there was one of these methods for government control./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanReligion in the kingdom of Dime isn't very common for the same reasons. I used to think the government did us a solid here. It's just esier to be taught what to believe. But seeing how Andray and Patter practice makes me wonder. In Dime like Cae most people such as myself are atheists we do not have a religion and are taught in classes and at a young age that no such thing exists or is of value. However in the land of Ib religion plays into the market and how markets are handled. It also plays into social class and in determining the value of your worth. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"My home of Dime and the land of Ib seem very strange in comparison to one another. Yet I can't help but feel it's a bold kingdom. One that is worth learning more about. I've been going over with Patter about the kingdoms I'm studying. I have forgotten which lands she chose. She's a great listener when it comes to such matters. I do worry about how much information I pour into this book. I do worry about if it were ever to be discovered. That's why I keep these lectures limited. That's why I focus more on my friends then the kingdom's themselves. One day "The Separation" won't be here. This book may as well serve as a historical record until then. I think I'm done writing for tonight./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 17/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Recently I have missed my home. I miss the kingdom of Dime. I miss it quite a lot. It's nice being at the grounds. It's nice to see many different kinds of faces. It's nice being with my friends. It's nice having friends. However, I can't help but long to be back. Living conditions are better here. Don't dismiss that fact. But warm cabins cannot make up for the lack of a unit's love. I know I haven't talked much about my unit. But that's because I thought leaving and being away from them would be a relief. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"That's another reason I came to the training grounds. But I miss them. I miss my two care tackers. I try not to think about it that's why I haven't written much, but I want to go back. Yet at the same time I want to continue training. I just wish I could bring them with me. Take them here. They've helped me so much you have no idea. They helped me get here even with my issues like my sensory stuff. They've helped me. I know our relationship isn't the best. I know that for a long time I was nothing but a trainee candidate to them. But I still miss them. I still long for them. I guess what I'm saying is that even though I have friends I feel lonely without my unit. I guess I'll try to get over it. Maybe I'll talk to Patter about this. She always seems to care about what I have to say and comforts me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 18/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So Patter invited me to start eating with her and Andray again. I told them I couldn't because I eat with another group. She looked disappointed when I told her this so I invited both her and Andray to eat with us. The group and I always eat in an empty classroom available to us because of Dylan. Now we have an official group and it's wonderful. Andray and Robin seem to be talking a lot with each other. Apparently they come from different parts of the kingdom. They like to discuss that aspect. They're not nearly as close as him and Patter are but they seem to be getting along fine. No one seems to be as close as him and Patter are, those two are inseparable. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Literally they know everything about each other. I'm not sure what brought them together but I'm glad that they have that kind of relationship with someone. Finding someone that you can be that close to can be tough. Trust me I know from experience. One thing I noticed about Andray though is that he wears a prostatic. I hadn't really noticed it because this is the first time I've seen him in shorts. He wears the prostatic on his left leg. It looks really strange to be honest. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Today at lunch we had a conversation about why each of us wanted to join the Allies. Patter says she wants to join to prove herself, to show people that she is more than just her appearance. To show people that people are more than what they seem at the surface. Canine said he wants to join because he wants bring equality to other kingdoms. To end privileges that exist with in them. Dylan says he wants to join to meet new people and learn about their experiences. D To discover other cultures and widen his world view. Dylan and I are in the same boat./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Andray said he joined to be with Adrian. They were in the same kingdom before he identified as trans and he knew both of them joining was the only way to see her again. I told them why I wanted to join, to visit different kingdoms. Then Robin stated why they wanted to. Apparently Robin doesn't care for The "Separation". They believe that we should all be united. That "The Separation" does far more harm then good. That it's needs to be abolished. I don't know if you realize what Robin said. Robin admitted something that could be considered treason. Robin just admitted to hating "The Separation". When they said this we all looked at them stunned./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""You can't honestly believe that" Patter said. She looked over her shoulder. She made sure nobody was watching or paying attention./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""That's what I think" Robin in a hush replied./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""You do realize what would happen" Andray said looking away./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I'm aware" they replied./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""What good would that cause. Were separate for a reason Robin. Do you know how everyone would be treated if we were all together? The discrimination that would cause, that chaos that would be reinstalled that "The Seperation" sought to end. People would demand special treatment again. Chaos would reign. Citizens would get it in there mind to behave against the order that was instilled. You have to be joking when you suggest this"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Robin looked at Canine. They smiled "yeah I guess I was". They did that smirk that they do and their tone held a sort of melancholy I can't quite place. "Anyways I'm getting kind of full" they flicked their tongue in their bucked tooth grin, "I guess I should be going" they held their chest and walked away. No one knew what to do. I left the room walking after them. We talked it over. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I like to think I'm pretty open. To new ideas and world views, and at first I'll admit I had a hard time grasping what they were suggesting. Ending "The Separation". Uniting as one. It sounds outrages doesn't it? I mean I thought it was. But honestly now that I think about it. They have a point. I like to use Andray as an example here. Him and Adrian were in love. They were together and they cared for one another. But then Andray started identifying as trans. He was forced to take "The Test" and move to another kingdom. Without his consent. He was ripped away from her forced into a new life where he had to act as though she didn't exist. Hardly anytime to plan almost overnight./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"That is messed up. This is what "The Separation" does. It keeps us apart. For so long time I didn't see it as an issue. No one does. Canine doesn't. At least not most people. No one here. But Robin has opened up my mind. They have convinced me that this needs to end. But how? Joining the Allies won't work. I don't think they realize that. You can't change a system from the inside can you? Something else needs to be done. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"But how? How could we possibly do this? The Allies have power but not that much power. They don't have that kind of control. I need to think this through. Robin and I will talk this over. I told Robin to apologize and say they were kidding. I don't know if everyone bought it. But it will keep everyone at bay for now. I think this is something that needs to happen. And it needs to happen now./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 7: span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanHere we go/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 19/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So Robin and I decided we need to find like minded individuals. People who can help us with this. People who feel the same. I asked them if anyone in our group would help? They said they didn't know. They said given everyone's reaction's probably not. I hope that our friends will hope despite Robin's predictions. I've become so close with everyone here. I can't imagine doing this without Patter or Andray. I can't even imagine doing this without Dylan. Whatever the case Canine's not going to help. Robin said we needed to devise a plan. Something that twill get us out of here and spread our message. After we find people to help us are leaving. We are going to do this, we are going to stop this. We're going to end "The Separation". I can't talk about our plans we haven't quite figured them out yet. But we are doing this, and we are doing this now./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 20/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Robin devised a letter with a hidden message in it. They put this letter on bulletin board outside of the classrooms./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"It reads/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"strongemspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Hello everyone I hope The day is going well with classes in Seperation. I hope everything and All is going well. I hope not really at all Harmfull. My classes are going well to. I think we need to focuses on studying. Want-ing to focus is way to awesome. Stop goofing off pretty please. It is nice to not really do so. We realize that not everyone wants to do this. Wishing not to is fine. Free-dom is what you are in your choices right? Thekingdoms exist for that reason. If not then there wouldn't be any kingdoms. You already know that though. Want-ing to do what you want is fine alright everyone? Comsee all the joys of learning. Me and My friends hope you have a nice day, Sincerely -Robin Nomico-Cabin 20/span/em/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Most people assume when they meet Robin that they don't speak English. Robin has a sort of accent I can't place and they're Japanese so people normally assume they don't. They speak English perfectly but I guess people are assholes. People make that assumption about me as well sometimes and I sound pretty Dimeish. Regardless of why due to this reason I believe people won't find the letter suspicions. I'm not exactly sure what the hidden message says or is. But now that it's out there I do so hope we'll meet some people to help us./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 21/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Two people came to our cabin today. Paris Sato an Asian boy and Melanie Lockheart a Dominican girl. Adrian also want's to help. People are decoding the letter this is good news. I don't know what was in the letter to get people to come but they did. Adrain said she's going to try to get Andray to join us. If Andray can be convinced then Patter can be convinced as well. I don't think I'll be able to convince Dylan or Canine. We'll probably have to leave them behind. That's right I forgot to tell you… We're planning on escaping the training grounds. We need to spread the word across different kingdoms. The only way to do this is to visit them. Escaping shouldn't be too hard. The security around here isn't very good and never was. We even have a plan to do so which I'm not going to share at this current moment. Later today we are going to have a meeting with all our assembled members. This is our group. I better start to get to know these people if were going to escape the world together./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 22/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Lockheart seems to be cold and collected. She doesn't seem to be very open. She let us know that she is genderfluid and currently right now is identifying as female. So to respect her pronouns when they change. But outside of that, and the fact that she goes by her last name, I don't tend to know anything about her. She appears to be from The Kingdom of Stran wearing the same colors as Robin. Paris seems to be very energetic. He always goes on talking for hours while simultaneously being hyperactive. He can't shut his mouth. That can sometimes get on my nerves. He also seems to be either blind or visually impaired. He doesn't like us asking questions about it./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanHe wears the colors of the Kingdom of Poly. Pink, Green, and Blue. He has short pitch black hair and milky white eyes. He carries some sort of stick with him often. He slings a satchel across his left shoulder. It contains many different books within it. Each one on a different kingdom. Robin said this will help us and that we can use the knowledge he owns. He seems to be interested in reading different series. He talks about his favorite books all of the time. His favorite to my knowledge is an old one called Isync. Which apaerently he has his friends read due to not having the resources to read it himself. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"He likes the scifi genre but to my knowledge his second favorite book is Twilight. He appears to be a sucker for romance. I thought Twilight was banned outside of Rohet do to portraying a woman and a man together but I have no idea. I personally like to write so I'm thinking I might share one of my stories with him. However I'm still conscious about sharing my stories with others. I'm perfect, my writing's not. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Adrian seems to be into Anime and Manga. She loves any foreign media. How she gets her hands on media outside of the kingdoms I don't know. She seems to love detective stories as well and can be a snoop herself. Her greatest inspiration seems to be Detective Conan. She often rambles and can't always form her sentences right. She is from The Kingdom of Ib and therefor wears the colors pink,purple,and blue. I never thought she'd be Andrays type but apparently they were raised in a unit together. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I asked everyone what there reason to help us was during the meeting. Paris says he feels like people should have the freedom to venture wherever they please. He feels not being allowed to leave your given kingdom is harmfully and morally despicable. Adrian said that Andray was taken from her and she doesn't want anyone to have to go through what they did. Lockheart kept quite about her reason not wanting to share it We discussed how we were going to escape. There are three options. Number 1 theirs a food truck that's unguarded which usually comes around 5:00 Am on sundays. With a lock pick once they're done unloading the truck, we could probably sneak in the back and leave as the truck exits the to the kingdom of Tissfim. Option two : Their's a large gate that we could jump which separates the grounds and the kingdom. It's guarded however we could easily distract or knock out the guards. Third we could try and convince one of the staff to let us leave but that doesn't seem very likely, Before we leave we are going to try to convince others to come with us. Adrian is going to try to convince Patter and Andray. Paris is going to try to convince some of his friends. Lastly I'm going to attempt to convince Dylan and Canine. I doubt they will come. But I can at least attempt it. Wish us luck./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 8: Escape/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 23 I approached Dylan. He was against the idea, he said he wouldn't tell anyone what we were planning, but he wouldn't support us and I shouldn't of come to him with this info. He cares to much about becoming an Ally. He has worked to hard toward his goal to throw it away on "some rebellion" apparently. Since Dylan is against it that automatically throws any chance of Canine coming out the window. Adrian convinced Andray to help. She said she was leaving, and that him and her would be separate again if he didn't come. I feel like that's emotionally manipulative but its not my place to say anything on the matter. It's their relationship. I also want him to come so I'll allow whatever it takes. Andray convinced Patter to come. He told her that if she truly wanted to prove herself this would be the best option. Paris convinced his friends Arwah Said and Emily Smith to come. I don't know anything about them but the more the merrier. We now have a group. We are leaving tomorrow. Robin and I appear to be one the leaders. I hope this goes over we'll./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 24/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We escaped onto the truck today. We're currently in there right now. It's bumpy and there are a lot of us but we've made it. We are now leaving the training grounds. I told everyone about this journal. It's our official record from now on. One day it will make history. Once we've been united that is. Arwah and Emily seem hang out together. In fact Arwah helps her communicate given that she's nonverbal and uses signs. Arwah is from the kingdom of Nap. While Emily is from the kingdom of Rohet. That worries me some. But she appears to sweet for it to stay on my consciousness. We are discussing a plan of what to do if the workers open the back doors. We assume that said workers will do so to create another load. We've taken weapons with us. Arwah brought a dagger, But the rest of us are stuck with smuggled out knives from the training ground's kitchen. Paris refused to carry one for some reason. I hope we won't have to resort to using said items. I'm am weary of this whole mission. I never expected this. Hold on the trucks stopping. I have to stop writing./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 25/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We made it out safely. We didn't have have to use our weapons. They didn't open the back doors or bother to carry another load. We escaped discreetly with everyone keeping quite. As soon as we made our way into town people begun to stare. I don't know if it was because no one in our group except Emily is white, and everyone around us seemed to be, or if it was because we were wearing our kingdoms flags, but the people of this land were looking at us suspiciously. We made our way through the town and into a bank. There Robin converted the cash that they saved for this mission into the currency of Tissfim. We then left, made our way to a nearby inn, and booked one room. We took our time to sneak everyone in. There were only two beds. Majority of us slept on the floor. It was quite cramped. Some of us were lucky enough to have towels to cover us. We are finally out. Now the question is what to do next./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 9: Chapter 9/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 26/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Robin and I are the only ones who leave the room. We only had enough cash for one room and three nights. Therefor Robin and I are the only ones that are perceived to be in the inn. They wouldn't allow more than two people per room so we are keeping everyone else a secret. The people around here seem very judgmental of us. We didn't give them a reason to be, so the fact that they just naturally are is somewhat upsetting. There's one man who likes us though his name is Mr. Locus. He's tall frail, and slouches. He has oddly styled clothes, pail skin and wrinkles across his face. He has bags under his eyes. He has grey hair but is balding in the center. He wears a hearing aid in his right ear. I don't know why he likes us, when everyone else doesn't but I'm glad he seems to care. He always carries on conversation about the town relating old facts and such. He seems passionate about it./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanSometimes he'll give Robin and I fresh fruit that he's gardened. I like him. It's a shame were leaving soon. I think I'll miss him even through I've only known him a few days. In the room everyone is getting upset about not being able to leave. Andray says its necessary even if it gives him anxiety. He just can't stand cramped spaces. I forgot to mention that he has frequent anxiety attacks. I don't know what brings them on, I stay out of the room but I've seen him beginning to have them a few times. Patter takes him into the bathroom saying they need to be alone. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Whenever he's upset she helps and comforts him. He trusts her. Andray seems to be very bright but he has a lot of stuff going on with him. From what I understand he has several disorders. I don't know much about it but Patter told me not to ask him. He apparently get offended easily. Outside of Andray, people are not so contempt. They are angry that we're not making any progress as well being room stuck all day. We alternate between beds in the room. Tonight I get to sleep on one. I feel lucky. We're going to leave tomorrow. We don't know where we are going next but we ran out of rent and have overstayed our welcome./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOUNRAL ENTRY 27/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Mr. Locus came by our room today. He saw everyone inside. He then demanded to know what was going on. We told him about our plan. Or I did. In fairness I shouldn't have been so rash but I'm glad I was. Everyone gave me the death glare. I don't have much wrong with me. But sometimes I freak out and while most people are sink or swim I do speed laps in the pool. I just came clean. If any of friends had thought to speak first they may have come up with a lie or in the case of Arwah attacled but no me Florist Chang, I just had to open up my trap. "I see" "What are you going to due?" Patter looked concerned. "Nothin. But I think you should leave. Folks like yourselves are already suspicious as is, doing this is not helping you in any manner. I think what ya'll are trying to accomplish is admirable. Most of Tissfim would agree with you. But not this town, not here. You should take up residence elsewhere." "Then where should we go?" Andray had a worried expression. "To the Railing" "The what?" Paris looked hopeful. "The Railing. I can show you where it is. It's a black market like trade. It's where the low life's of here dwell. I have a few friends there. They ow me a few favors. It isn't the best place in the world. But you'll succeed there. I knew you were from the training grounds. Everyone in Tissfim knows about the joke that is the allies. You should probably figure out some kind of disguise. Those shirts give you away" Emily made a series of signs with her hands. Arwah spoke "she wants to know if its safe" "It's safe enough. Now pack your things. We're goin'" Everyone looked disgruntled and discouraged. None of us studied Tissfim. We weren't allowed to do so. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Tissfim is where you go when you aren't right. When you've been reassigned kingdoms one too many times or have something generally wrong with you. It's where you go if you cause trouble. It's where your sent if you don't pass "The Test" and fit into a box. Tissfim is forbidden. Nobody knows of it. As far the governments concerned? As far as the allies are concerned….when you are sent to Tissfim you no longer exist. You are dead to the world. Figures the training grounds would be held here. It's the perfect cover. A program that doesn't exist but may as well have been forgotten. We didn't think any of this through. We're rash children who have gotten themselves in over their heads...He took us to a bus station where we are at and it's hard to write while moving on this bus. I am getting slightly motion sick, but what matters is that we are on our way./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 28/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We made our way into the market. It seemed quite clean. There were different tents and shops about. It didn't seem like the kind of place described. The people themselves seemed to be filthy but the environment itself wasn't. Mr Locus guided us through, several tents and into a back ally. Then through the back ally their lye tents looking how I imagined. These tents weren't white like the ones before instead they were pitch black and small. Unlike the tents before there weren't people greeting you in the front. We maneuvered our way through several crowds./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanThen we went into one tent. In front of us were two twins. Their names are Akil and Adofo Atsu. Akil looked at us "Ay look who's here" she greeted Mr. Locus with a friendly handshake. She had an accent in the same way did but it was from a different region. "What are you and your friends doing here?" Adofo glared at us. "I was hoping I could talk to you both in private" Mr. Locus said. Adofo looked up at him. "If you insist". They made their way out of the tent and told us to stay in. We heard whispering in hushed tones. After 30 minutes the girls and came back in./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanAdofo looked serious while Akil was wearing a clearly fake smile. "Well then we better arrange some rooms. Come here the room's in the back" they took us through the back of the tent to where a larger tent lay. Inside it were two cots, a stove, a toilet, some boxes and a sink. Adofo looked at us "I'm sure we could make room" she was still wearing that expression. We are now in the room and everyone's discussing. Robin and Arwah are signing with Emily, Paris is staying close to Adrian, I'm hanging out with Lockheart, and Patter is calming down Andray. We're here we've made it out and to me that's all that matters. Hold on is talking now...ok he said he was leaving. He said if we need him we can visit him but he advises us not to. I'm glad to be out of that town. People were so harsh there. It's also a more diverse environment in the market. Adofo seems to not like us. I think Akil pretends to. They seem to be total strangers but they said they will get us cots and sleeping bags soon. I think that's all for today./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 29/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Adofo was talking to Robin and Paris today. Apparently I miss gendered the twins. Adofo is a demi guy and Akil is a demi girl. They are exiles from Stran. Stran seems like such a lax kingdom. I can't imagine what would get you exiled from there. Upon looking at their inventory though I feel I have somewhat of an idea…. I still don't get the trans thing. I always misgender people. I misgendered Robin and now I've misgenderd them. If you don't know what the demi girl identity is, its when someone identities with some aspects of female identity but not all aspects and considers themselves outside the gender binary. Or at least that's how the Akil described her identity. Adofo described his identity in a similar manner. Their basically part boy and part girl but not fully for either of them. So I'll try to respect that. I know some people think its ridicules to have all these different identities but I don't feel that way. I mean I was in a program designed and designated to host different people of different backgrounds in order to ensure government surveillance! Just cus I don't get it doesn't mean I have to be a jerkface./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI'm smarter then most people so I'm compassionate on this matter. After all theirs not quite anyone as wonderful as me, but that's besides the point. The point of the matter is that their nonbianary and I need to respect that. Whatever "respecting" that entails. I'm sure if I fuck up Robin will slap me on the wrist about it. Anyways I was talking with Akil today. She was wandering what our plan to end the separation was. "I know it's rubbish so you must have something in mind" she said. "Unfortunately no" "Please tell me you're joking. This is a big thing and you guys don't know what you're going to do to stop it?" she looked worried. span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanGod why do adults always look at me worried. "We've made it this far that's progress" "That's not enough progress. " she then went over to talk to Robin hoping for better answers. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Robin has been quite for a lot of this escape. I don't know what's going through their mind. I've been mostly hanging around Lockheart. He doesn't seem to be very open either. I don't even know any of his hobbies. He speaks very formally which I find odd. He also changes his pronouns on a daily bases. Ugh it's so annoying! Just pick one and stick with it god! He's kind of a mystery to be honest. He doesn't seem to like anyone but still hangs around us regardless. Out of all the things I know about Lockheart it's that he believes in this cause. And he will do whatever it takes to help us. I just wish I knew the reason why./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 30/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So Akil and Adofo said that they expect us to help out with the shop. I found out that besides weapons and contraband those boxes contain food. Both for personal eating and for sale. Today I will help sell several foreign items. The items are Nutela,Pepsi,Coke,Sprite,Oreos,and dove choclet. The food seems quite expensive and fancy so I'm not sure where they get it from. It goes for high prices here because its apparently hard to come by. People come to this shop with a lot of money. I'm not sure what kingdom these items are from but it's certainly not Dime. Everyone takes turns alternating between shifts. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"If people don't pay with money then they pay with items. So far we've collected some wash cloths, bread, toothpaste, and ramen. Ramen for whatever reason is high value. My shift ended later then expected today. Lockheart, Adofo, Robin, Akil and I discussed how to get people to join. Robin and I are sort of the leaders these days. Akil said most people would be up for it. But Tissfim is still monitored so we have to stay quite. We decided that we will create a handkerchief that people would wear around their necks. Colored with three large stripes. Pink,white and orange. If you where this clothing it means your with us. Or apart of our "rebellion" as Robin calls it. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We haven't made the handkerchiefs yet but we will soon. First, we need to find individuals to spread the word. Adofo says that he knows several people who would be up for this. Once we make the handkerchiefs, people will wear them and spread the word. Better them then us. Once our meeting was adjourned Robin and Adofo walked. While I was left sitting with Akil and her wheelchair. "So I guess I better be leaving as well then?" I told her yes and she left. I sighed to myself./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanThen Paris came over "Hey how you doin?" "Fine" "You sure about that?" "Yes this whole thing appears to be stressful" I glanced at him and his closed eyes. "We'll that's life. You win some you loose some. Just be chill about it. Breath." "Thanks" We then went on to have a wonderful conversation about mark twain. Paris's favorite poet. We discussed his poetry and Paris read some aloud to me. Paris seems to joke alot. Always making puns sometimes self deprecating ones. I think he does it out of boredom but that's just a guess. I learned today that him, Arwah, Emily and Adrian were friends at the training grounds. It was apparently Adrian's decoding of the letter that got them to that meeting. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"It's unknown how Lockheart knew about it but I'm glad he did. Paris said to be careful around Adrian because she'll find out your secrets. I told him I roomed with her so I'd be fine. Paris seemed a lot calmer today then before. I don't know how he has such passion for life. But he always has a sparkle in his closed eyes. He also misgendered the twins. . But that's due to only being able to hear their voices. That makes me feel better about the trans stuff. I'm glad I'm not alone in my mistakes. I'm glad I have friends here. I'm glad I'm not doing this by myself./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 10: Chapter 10/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"emspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 31/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So Adrian decided that she wants to be the one to get people to join. She said that she could use her "powers of sleuthing" to find out whether or not people would be willing to rebel. I hate calling it that. We are doing something good here, and putting that label on it makes it sound like we're doing something disputable. We received the cloth to make the handkerchief today. That's my preferred term for the item however else prefers to call the item bandanas. I was talking with Akil today as well. We were just discussing life in Tissfim when she said that she had Protonopia. Which is a sort of color blindness. Both her and Adofo have it. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Akil said that she and her twin couldn't tell the difference between green red and yellow colors. I said that that was interesting. She said that it sucked. I don't know why she was bringing this up to me. I think she was implying that she didn't want to bother with the handkerchief or help in creating it. Adofo is fine with this so I think she's just using it as an excuse. "Oh hey I'm colorblind and my blindness doesn't affect this but I'm gona use it as a crutch now!" Give me a break. God how stupid. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Andrey eventually started rambling about his disorders and he asked me if I was mentally ill. This is the conversation that followed./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Nope"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Nothing. At all? Your not even on the spectrum?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I don't know of any spectrum. All I know is that I'm perfectly and mentally healthy"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"He laughed./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Sure you are Florist. That's why you got that ego so big"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""It's not an ego if it's justified."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""You ever stop to examine your beliefs."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""What do you mean?" I asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I mean everybody has flaws florist. But you act as though you don't"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Well, almost everyone. I do not have any flaws"br /He looked at me. "That's probably your biggest one"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"br /I gave Andray a death glare. I do not have any issues. Why would he say something like that? I mean it can not be true. Maybe I'm over thinking this. I tend to do that frequently. I was not sure how to react so I left. I've been ignoring Andray ever since. I hung out with Robin after that. They were feeling quite upset. When I asked why, they said dysphoria and to not ask any more questions. Robin has really been the leader of this movement. They are practically the one responsible. I feel like that might be a huge weight to carry and when you look at them it shows. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"They're not the upbeat cheerful person they were at the training grounds. Paris on the other hand has been a lot calmer, he helps with the shop though he needs help distinguishing certain items from one another. Specifically the cans of liquid. They all have the same packaging. Adofo and Lockheart have been hanging out. I don't know why those two care for each other however I am happy that they enjoy each others company. Lockheart being as distant as he is could use the company./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"It's really good for Lockheart to actually like someone. Again Lockheart is a mystery. I've been talking with Arwah and Emily some. Everything I know about Emily Arwah has translated for me. Emily only communicates in asl which Arwah translates into speech. Emily appears to want to be an actress. She wants to be on the stage. I don't know how that would work, but if that's her dream that's her dream. She also plays several instruments including the violin and the harp. She unfortunately couldn't bring the items with her. She seems really sweet. She also has an odd appearance . She has Pail skin, dark red hair, with freckles everywhere. She wears the striped and stared flag of Rohet./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Arwah on the other hand wears the kingdom of Nap's flag. She's into comic books, video games, technology more specifically robots. She seems to be always relaxed. Never getting angry. She is also shy. She speaks very causally often using slang for most conversations similarly to Paris. She does not talk nearly as formal as Lockheart or myself. She has an ascent much like Adofo and Akil have and it's similar in tone. When it comes to living conditions here they are not the best. All the food we receive is in packages. Andray can't eat half of it. It's always food you don't need to cook. We don't have a bath or a shower so instead we use the sink to clean. It's kind of cramped to be honest. But I am glad we have a place to stay. Akil does not seem to mind while Adofo does greatly. The two seem to be very different from one another. Adofo is into sketching, sowing, costuming, and overall crafts. While Akil is more into weaponry combat and specialized skills. Adfofo presents more masculine looking with short hair and pants while Akil presents more androgens though and she leans more towards feminine entire. Their identical in face, dark skin and dark eyes, while their personality and appearance differs greatly, something some of us did not expect. I overheard them speaking with Patter. She asked them both what the identities in the land of Tissfim /"There are no identities."br /"I am sorry what?"br /"What my sibling is saying is that their is no set identity for Tissfim" Akil /"All kingdoms have a set identity" Patter insisted /"Not Tissfim" Adofo /"How is that possible?"br /" Tissfim's where you go when you have no where else. Tissfim's where you go if you don't fit into a kingdom or have committed some form of treason. All kingdoms allow you to come here. But most people wouldn't want to"br /"Why are you here" Patter asked Akilbr /"I was in the military ranks in the kingdom of Stran. When they found out I was a Demi girl and not a trans woman they forced me here. Demi girls and Demi guys are not recognized by Stran to be legitimate identities. Adofo was sent away from Poly for the same reason"br /"But that is not fair" I managed to say. "Life's not fair that's why we're helping you" Adofo looked me in the eye. I went to my sleeping bag and rested. I had no idea. Maybe that's why we aren't allowed to learn about Tissfim. Because that would allow us to learn about other identities besides our own. This is worry some. I think I need some rest./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 32/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Adofo started making the handkerchiefs today. So far he's made three. One for him one for Akil and one for Robin. He is making more for the rest of us soon. Adrian found two people who'd be willing to join us. Their names are Juilia Quartez and Raftil Tososie. They're both originally from the kingdom of Ohmo. Much like patter. The two were holding hands so I assume their a couple. I guess Adrian really must have "powers of sleuthing" as she claims. They're not living with us however they are helping us create the /I asked then why they were sent to /Raftil spoke first. "We're together"br /"I can see that"br /"No we're not allowed to be together"br /Julia /"What do you mean?"br /"We're an interracial couple. That's forbidden in a lot of kingdoms, so we were sent to Tissfim. They wouldn't be having that"br /"Oh" it seems like all the reasons for people to be sent here, appear to be unjust. The twins were sent away for identity while these two were sent away for love. This does not seem fair. The kingdoms must not be. I am glad that were in Tissfim where people will agree. Emily seems uneasy around these new guests. I'm not sure as to the reason. They are looking to be kind. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Raftil even is helping with sowing. While her girlfriend is supplying the cloth. They seem to be familiar with Akil and Adofo. They must be friends. I've never been around so many adults before. Paris has been talking more with the twins. Patter and Andray have been staying close. Today I saw him having a panic attack. It was horrifying. He started off nervous and he shook slightly. He began talking fast and soon his breathing began to pant. He sat down in the corner and closed his eyes. Patter held his hand while his breathing became louder and louder. He could barley talk. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"If he could it was only a few words. I don't know how long it lasted, I have a hard time keeping track of time. But it was over an hour. Everyone just sat there staring at him. We all were worried. Tears were streaming down his face, and you could hear his gasps for air. He was loud and in pain. After he'd calmed down, he was disoriented. He sat with Adrain his head in her lap. She held him close. None of us besides Patter had witnessed this before. He said he felt like he was going to die. He said he felt like he wasn't really there. He said he was terrified and suffering. This is frequent for him. I know I could never go through something like that. He seems strong. I thought his anxiety was just a trait. I never had thought about it before. But the fact that he goes through this, on a regular basis is quite saddening. I'm not sure what else to say...I think I'm done writing for today./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 33/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We received another member today. His name is Breath Youn. He is probably are oldest member to date. He's around 18 years of age. I know that Akil and Adofo are older then him but they're more like parental guides while he's more of an actual member. He isn't living with us either but he often stays in the tent helping out. He's always talking to himself and the odd thing is that he never seems to stop. He has trouble stringing sentences together he's somewhat incoherent most of the time. Sometimes he responds as though we called his name when we never did. He tends to be an odd person it's true. He has an interest in teaching and activism which were his original plans before he came to Tissfim. He was sent to Tissfim for being aromantic which is forbidden in the Kingdom of Rohet. Rohet is a very strict land. They're particular about who they let in and who they send away. To my knowledge the only kingdoms that allow this identity are the kingdoms of Dime, Tissfim , and Cae. But he's straight, he is not allowed into any of the lands besides this one. We have good reason to be against the separation. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I think that matters. In other news Akil has been planning on what to do once we have enough members. She's planning a battle strategy on how to escape Tissfim. I don't know how she's going to come with us, given her current state but I assume she have something planned. The shop was closed today so everyone stayed close. I talked with Emily and Arwah. Emily was glad to see another member of Rohet. She apparently really misses her home. Arwah was talking up a storm about her favorite comic books. Adrain interjected speaking of her favorite manga. The two were laughing, quite relating to each other. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Patter overheard and showed them some of her comics. Everyone was impressed. She sighed with relief. We started talking about adaptations of it. Andray said he would love to be in a musical version. Which lead to him giving us lectures about the importance of musical theatre. We all were just having a great time. Even Lockheart was talking. Adofo and Akil brought us some drinks. Some of the liquid they've been selling. Robin was in love with it. Robin even temporally seemed to be their snarky self like they were back from the training grounds. Paris drank it and became hyper. He was bouncing off the walls yet still quite pleasant to be around. We were really enjoying ourselves. Today was a good day. I hope we have more like it. It's hard to enjoy ourselves when planning a revolution but occasionally just occasionally we have wonderful days like this./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 11: pirates/span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 32/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Today is the day of escape. Akil has it all planned. There are several guards in front of a long spiked gate boarding the kingdom's tissfim and rohet. Rohet is near the land of tissfim and beyond Rohet through the seas lye the kingdom of Ib. Rohet is a very unaccepting land so it will be hard to spread our message. Though we have no other choice. Theirs people who hate the separation everywhere. This will just have to do. Akil made a special gas. I don't know what she put in it but it involved bodily fluids and some sort of chmeicals. Akil said to wait as she would send the gas filled bomb promising no harm would come to the guards and we could take their keys and unlock the gates from there. It's going to be a long process and to be honest I have no idea if it shall work or not. I have no idea what this gas even is, but we have our handkerchiefs most of Tissfim is wearing them now, and we're ready. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 33/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We did it we escaped! but I'm uncertain if harm came to the guards. They were chocking and crying and coughing. I don't know what was in that bomb but it couldn't of been good. Akil said they were all simply knocked out but I am uncertain...I guess this really is a rebellion after all. Regardless were wearing our hankercheifs and took a buss into the polished land of Tissfim. We had sewn new clothing to wear over our kindom's flags. When we work in the shadows we kind of wear the flags as a sort fuck you to the kingdoms. A sort "you were training us to be your security but now we're ending you" kind of message. I must be careful here, everyone must. Especially Patter, they don't take kindly to Hijabi's here./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanWe carefully made our way on to the buss. The front of the bus had all pail people in it, the back of the bus had people that looked like us. Diverse. We were told to sit in the back Emily had to sit separate from us. She signed that we had to follow the rules. Separate but equal was some propaganda written on the side of the bus. It was in a fancy cursive pink. Emily looked sad. Once off the bus the pail people went first, they had skin the color of peaches. Then we were allowed off. Everything on the streets of rohet was segregated. Emily had to even stay on a separate sidewalk then us. People spit in our direction, people laughed and mocked us, people gave us glares. Emily took us to her home. Her caretakers were there. They looked at us stunned. She signed to them what was happening and we took refuge./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 34/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We found three members to join us on our journey in Rohet. Ania, Johana, and Jaimie. None of them looked like Emily. Its funny how harsh everyone is treated except for her. I knew Rohet was full of cishets. I knew Rohet was strict. I knew Rohet had predjudice. After all in the 50's Rohet initiated the Separation. But to think that they could be this far back, is astounding and harsh, and cruel. I hope we escape soon. We gave them handkerchiefs to wear and they put them on. Ania and Johana are going to start an group here, a group to eventually join us in rebellion. We can not do it ourselves we do not have the upper hand here. None of us expected this. Jaimie shall come with us. We shall try to stow away on a boat as soon as possible. We need to get to Ib. I can't take being here any longer! Right now we're just trying to spread the word. The kingdoms are segregated from one another so we have to plant our seeds in each kingdom carefully. Then eventually we'll start leaving operatives in each kingdom to operate bases there once our revolution gets more extreme./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 35/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We paid a handsome fee and were loaded onto a boat with the cargo. It was a nice ship but not within the area we were staying. It swayed back and forth and several of us threw up. Andray had another attack. Half way to our destination, we stopped. Then we heard ruckus aboard screams, the sounds of ropes slicing open, and the sound of chests. We went up the dock to investigate there I saw it. A topless women with saggy pants and a hat that screamed her nature. Pirates. She glared at me with a smirk and came close lifting my head up with her sword. I paused. "well well well, hmmph. Stow aways" she yelled back to her crew who cheered at her command. she laughed "your comin with us." /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"She took us aboard her ship with plans unknown to us all. She examined my hanchercheif once aboard. I was forced to kneel by her seat with my head bowed. "what's this?" she asked. "its nothing of value to you" "it looks like a flag to me" I realized I was probably going to die so I had no choice but to tell the truth "we are rebelling against the separation it is our sign" we were alone and she looked astonished. "get up" I forced myself to my feet. "you want to end the separation? Your those rebels I've heard so much about!" she looked at me with care for once. "yes" "Welcome to my crew that's we want as well" she laughed and took me to my friends and undid chains that bound. "so I hear you all are rebelling" they gave me death glares. "I want in. Anything I can do to help let me know." She quickly swiped my handkerchief and put it around her neck. "welcome aboard the siren's song. I'm Bird Ito by the way. I hope to help you as much as I can." She outreached her hand for me to shake and I did so but I had hesitated. I knew what she originally planned for me. Something I shall not dare repeat. But I knew a pirates trust was worth more then the whole rebellion itself./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 36/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We boarded the dock of Ib today. I have spending less and less time writing in you journal. I hope someday someone dare read this. I hope my efforts of records will not go unnoticed. As soon as we got off I noticed almost everyone wearing some form of pirate attire. "I thought pirates were only on the seas?" I asked Bird. She replied "that's what they teach you in training but it's lies" "then what's the truth" "were all pirates" she had flirtation in her tone as she put her finger to her lip. "by the way" "Yes?" "why do not wear a sh-" "it distracts the men. And the women. Not you apparently but certainly some of your friends." she glanced over at the group. "oh" "a pirate must do what is necessary to succeed" She patted my back and she put on a vest. "better?" "greatly" I sighed. We left her room which was I had stayed and walked onto the docks we had viewed through windowed glass. Patter came up to me. She was worried about not fitting due to her hijab. I told her she could always lie something she's terrible at. Bird then led us to the trade, we were now apart of her crew apparently she could sail anywhere to any kingdom. She said before 8:00 we would need to have a meeting with her crew to make sure they would support the revolution. They would change their flag to our colors. On land we recruited 18 different pirates half of whom had crews of their own. I think we are starting to make progress./span/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; line-height: normal;"strongspan style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Chapter 12: /span/strong/p
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p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 37/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Okay so Andray isn't the best at the whole pirate thing. Neither am I to be honest. Something I wasn't aware of was we have a whole set of rules. We have to go to bed at eight. We can't fight on deck. Beware anyone with a black spot on their back and more. Today we're expected to pillage a ship from Rohet. This I will due happily. I am perfectly aware its morally wrong, but Rohet is morally wrong. Rohet is evil. It's racist and segregated. I think the citizens of Rohet can deserve to loose one ship./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 38/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We got money of Rohet's currency today through the pillage. Andray had several attacks. Bird took note. She scolded him for it. We split the money equally. Emily was uncomfortable with the whole thing. While Bird continued to flirt with me. She doesn't seem to flirt with anybody besides me and she is a bit older so I don't why she would choose me. I should probably mention again that I am sixteen and Bird is in her thirties. It bothers me a little bit? Like normally if she were any other girl I'dspan style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanplay along but she's an adult! I'm a child compared to her nooo way! Patter would be a better choice honestly. I just keep my distance grin and bear it. We need her for this resistance. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I sat with Andray at lunch and dinner and I continued to sleep in the same cabin as Bird. Then something worrisome happened. She told me she didn't like Andray that he was quite a burden on the crew. I shrugged it off and didn't think anything of it. That was until I noticed a black spot on Andray's back. He was marked for death. I confronted Bird about this and she said he could leave or die. I told her if he left then I would have to leave as well. All of us would. She said if that was our wish so be it but she is still apart of our rebellion. Time to explore the rest of Ib./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"JOURNAL ENTRY 39/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So, we made are way to Ib. Everyone is outstandingly polite here. it's almost scary. Everyone wears Victorian or pirate attire and it turns out that the technology is still fairly modern despite this. Each ruler of each kingdom has several different responsibilities. One of which is controlling the papules of the kingdom and keeping the citizens in order. Keeping and controlling your citizens which are assigned to you via the test is a decree of the kingdom. The best system I could accurately describe the kingdoms government as would simply put be communist. Each Kingdom is given a government assigned King. Then the papules is controlled by the government heavily which stays in place from previous leaders and rulers. For example in Dime we don't even get to choose our life partners./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"We take yet another test and they assign another kingdom resident to be with us. Expecting the attraction just to happen because we are demisexual. Then we can apply to be caretakers and if we pass the government's checks again they might assign us a child from Question. But if we even slip up just a little bit the child will be reassigned and we'll be sent to Tissfim. Dime was never really supposed to exist. The kingdoms being kingdoms is in many ways a front. It's instilled in a way in order to bring about the illusion of security. It's instilled to create an illusion of order./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"But in reality? Theirs no bloodline! Theirs no heirs. It's all at the center of Rohet and the kingdoms are basically it's colonies! God it pisses me off so much! That some idiots in the 1950's saw queer people rising up and decided "you know what let's just send them all away!" keeping Rohet for the Straights. Ugh I hate it. It led to this culture. It led to this environment. It led to people being controlled and manipulated while Rohet get's to stay exactly the same and send anybody who causes just a little bit of trouble away. God the kingdoms aren't even in the same country as Rohet is! We were literally shipped away! I mean historically…./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"So back to my point. Essentially one of the ways the kingdoms maintain control is not just monitoring what you say and what you do but also how you dress, where you live, and what you eat. The kingdom of Ib seems to be stuck in a Victorian esc aesthetic. Probably instilled by some monarch's personal sense of fashion. Which yeah the king? He is the primary ruler. You have to really work yourself into good graces to get that position. You have total control over everyone once you get it. In the Kingdom of Dime we wear uniforms. Not to dissimilar to the training grounds. In Rohet it seems like they're from the 50's. Keeping people frozen in time is a way of control. It's a way to keep things from progressing from changing. To keep things still and maintained./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Rohet never progressed. While in Dime and in Cae movements took place and were met with some success they were only able to do that because we were sent away. You'd think the kingdoms would work as a safe haven but the fact that there are even kingdoms at all is a red flag. This being said I'm glad it does not have the values of that time./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanAkil has had a hard time with this all. She is in a wheelchair after all. It can be difficult for her to move. I do hope the best for her back at Tissfim. Apparently there are 14 gods and goddesses that are worshiped here. The main one's being Yona the spirit of hope and wisdom personified as an alien like being married to Chal. Chal personified as a hawk the spirit of guidance and fertility. Keroon personified as a dove the spirit of love and the seas. And lastly Con signified by a rabbit the spirit of the underworld and death. These are the main spirits that are worshipped. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Depending on which god/goddes/other you worship determines how you are viewed in this society. I can't stress this enough this is another method of control. Of course not all bisexuals believe in multiple gods. But if you want to control your people you control how they worship. Patter kept her head down. So did Andray. Andray didn't get to many weird looks but Patter stood out like a sore thumb. Adrian was on edge the entire time./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"This is where she's from. I had a conversation with her. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""So you all believe this" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""It's not that I want to it's mandated" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""But why go with multiple gods? Wouldn't one god reigning be easier"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Andray was quite he held his arms as I said this to Adrian./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""By fracturing religion into multiple gods you can sort of get an idea of the kind of people they are from what they worship" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""That doesn't make much sense"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""It's the government's idea not mine"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Adrian sighed and we made our way into the inn. Patter and Andray were with their heads down./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"The Caretaker took note of Robin and I who were at the helm./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""what gods do you worship"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"I was the one getting the rooms. I couldn't think of any due to being nervous so I just spit out a name/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Con. I mean we worship Con"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"He smiled widely./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""you're in luck. We have a nice room for you all"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"He took out a large key with lots of gizmos and gadgets on it. He handed it to Patter. "Interesting headdress for a worshiper of Con" I don't think he'd ever seen a hijab before let alone know what one was. Patter was quick on her feet "dual observance" he smiled relieved. "Very well" We walked up to our room and discovered a it may as well have been a museum. It was large and enormous and all of us were allowed to stay. They were paintings of rabbits throughout the room as well a bronze statue of one below it lye an alter. "Guess they're fond of Con here..." Adrian remarked uncomfortable. "what's wrong with Con"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""most people despise her"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""why?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""because she symbolizes death and who is fond of that"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"She continued to examine the room, uncomfortable and saddened. "we may as well pay our respects while here" she sat down at the alter and bowed her head chanting a prayer in a language unknown to me. Andray just sat across the room and watched. She got up slightly happier. "I've been meaning to ask you" I said to Andray. "The Jewish thing?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /span"Well your government mandates religion so…." /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"He sighed and adjusted his kippah. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""It's true that Ib is an theocracy. I only ever wore my kippah in secret and at the training grounds where nobody would know better. Nobodies taught about religion there it's forbidden"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /span"Is that why you're on edge"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /span"No it's the rabbits everywhere" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""What do you mean" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Andrien crossed her arms as Andre spoke. "In the Jewish religion rabbits are an omen of death. In fact we are currently staying in a god of death's room. Do you not think that's an omen for our movement?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /span"You think someone's gona die?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /span"I think death is on it's way"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""But that's just your opinion. I mean that's your belief. If you are upset because of a story-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /span"You don't have to believe my religion Florist but you have to understand why I'm on edge"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""What does Adrian think of this?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Why don't you ask her"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Andray was cold. I took Andray's hand and went over to Adrian./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""It's weird I think it's a sign that our gods are in support of this"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""But is Andray right could it be a sign of death?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""if so it's a warning from Con herself"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""guys stop being ridiculous Nobodies gona die" flustered I practically yelled that last part. Paris ears perked up. Robin just watched with a weird grin./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I'd volunteer" Robin smirked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""This isn't a joke"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I'm laughing" Robin said with a little bit of triumph in their voice./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Adrian was dead silent. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""if you say that even jokingly Con will take you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I'm not a big believer in fairytales"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Fairy tail!" Adrian was pissed./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""This is our religion! It is no more a fairy tail then what Patter believes!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Patter held to herself and quietly mumbled,/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""please don't bring me into this"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"She looked off to the side./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Robin and Adrian continued to argue that night. It finally ended with the following quip./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Well you know what I hope Con does take you. It would benefit our movement overall without your harshness!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Robin continued to wear that darn smirk./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Fine but on the condition I go out in style!" Robin stuck their tongue out./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"Adrian was so angry. She stormed out of the room. Robin laid back. Later that night we were laying in bed. Robin's was right next to mine. We had a conversation. Everyone else was asleep and the lights were off./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Just because it's not real doesn't mean you had to be a dick about it"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I'm a dick about everything Florist that's why people love me"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Do you ever regret it?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Oh the revolution? Way to change topics"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Yeah…the revolution…"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"It was dead silent as Robin paused./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""often"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Really?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Do you?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;"The words were slow coming from their mouth./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I think it's a lot harder than I thought it would be"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Nobody said it was going to be easy" the words were surprisingly causal and carried and air of arrogance almost./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I know that I just….didn't expect it to be such a mess. With Bird and all that. Andray nearly died"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I think that took more of a tole on Andray than anyone else" Robin sighed in their bed turning away from me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Why did you want to start this Robin?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""I knew from a young age that the separation was wrong. I got my hands on some propaganda when I was younger…and once I got a taste of that freedom. Separate but Equal never truly stood right with me"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""What are things like in Stran?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""Honestly? Stran's almost utopian."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;"span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman',serif; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; color: black;""It is?"/span/p
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