Confidence

Hello.

Goodbye.

Just like that,

It's here and then it's gone.

It's like a ghost ghosting by.

I'm fierce and then I'm not.

I'm annoying and then I'm not.

You're worried and then you're not.

Which one is it?

Make up my mind for myself.

Why does confidence fade?

Why do I always get choked up on my words?

I can't make a single sound.

I can't say no.

All I can say is yes.

Why am I such a people pleaser?

Why do I always care what others think?

Just because I'm out there,

Just because I'm loud,

You always have to question whether or not this is actually a thing.

Well, it is with me.

When I make mistakes,

When the outcome isn't what I wanted,

I scream and cry on the inside.

I cringe at how I behave.

I cringe at what I say.

Just this once,

From here on out,

I want things to change.

I want the confidence to change my circumstances.

I want to be me.

Please, don't stop me.

Please, don't tell me I'm being stupid.

Please, don't tell me it's too much.

My confidence can't remain lost.

I know what I want.

I know who I want to be.

This is me.

This is the real person living inside my heart.

I wasn't so sure at first.

I didn't want to scare people away.

I didn't want to scare myself away.

I have this version of myself that's confident.

I want to be that person.