I Hate That

Shrouded in darkness,

This emptiness refuses to leave me.

No matter how much I try to hide it,

I know what I've done.

In spite of what you've told me,

I know I'm not forgiven.

I stand in front of the wreckage.

I've left quite a trail.

Even though I yearn for you with all my might,

I know you're gone for good.

Maybe I'm still in love with you.

I've questioned it before.

I hate that you hate me.

I don't want to live this life anymore.

It's grown boring.

There's nothing left of me.

You've ripped it all out.

I hate this so much.

I want to scream my heart out.

I want to cry myself dry.

I know this won't bring you back to me.

I know my actions have turned you away from me.

I hate that you hate me with all of your being.

After all that we've been through,

You no longer want me as I still want you.

My heart aches a great deal.

My very being is shedding tears for you.

I pray that you'll one day return to me.

My feelings aren't so special to you.

You've made this obvious.

Shall I pry out my eyeballs for you?

Do you want me to sever my guts?

I want to shred myself from the inside out.

If it's for you,

I'll do it.

You've made yourself clear.

You want nothing to do with me.

Have I made myself clear?

Do you know that I yearn for you?

After all this time,

Why can't you just accept it?

I don't get why I feel this way about you.

I can't have you.

You've made it obvious.

I need to stop now.

This is starting to become unbearable.

Please, won't you save me?

Please, I'm begging you.

Why won't you come to my rescue?

Are you that mad at me?

I hate that things have to remain this way.

We've made quite a rocky path.

We've got quite a rocky existence of one another.

You've erased me from your mind forever.

This is something I just cannot do.

This is something I've tried.