I choke

I gotta hold it in

I gotta pretend to smile

I gotta pretend like I'm alright

I don't want to

I want help

I look for help

I know I need help

I think no one understands

I feel like I am choking

I want to speak but the words are stuck in my throat

I can't get them past my teeth

I stay quiet

I'm dumb

I hurt

I feel so stupid

I'm this old and can't even speak

I feel it's embarrassing

I want to be alone so no can see

I don't know maybe I'm done