Nothing and Anything: A Love Story

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Hello, self. Hello, God(s), whatever it is, just where exactly are you?

The world is on fire, hey, what's the deal,

Are you even there? Do you exist?

Are you even listening?

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I reach out to touch, but your makeup's like dust

And completely see-through.

It changes form like sand as I move my fingers in it,

Or like a shadow when you move, for

Any location you are, you can't seem to commit.

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I look into the mirror and see nothing, nothing at all.

Just an ugly pair of black hole eyes

And some weird human-shaped meatball.

Who are you? I ask, cutting deep inside

But nothing shows up except matter, blood and tendons,

And snappy little bones that spread throughout your body like a mold,

As I spread apart your filets wide.

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After I imagine myself mutilated, I leave and shut the door

To get a better view,

However I forgot what it is I was looking for.

The ceiling might as well have fallen down, for suddenly,

The reflective glass shatters behind me,

Throwing the sharp edges askew.

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I look for the handle, but again, all is black.

The air and the edges all feel the same.

I feel as though I've had a heart attack,

Like the mirror, my pieces all out of frame.

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I keep calling out to you, Anything, like some kind of maniac.

Show me you're here, show me you exist, but Nothing shows up.

And He has no demands.

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But I won't do it. I won't do what you most fear

Just to see if you'll come running after me, Anything,

Pulling me by the ear.

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Do you hate me, am I stupid, annoying, unlovable? Or do you

Ignore me just for fun?

I can't imagine any other excuse,

But if you leave me hanging long enough,

I might just come up with one.

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You're testing me, watching me. Must be,

Laughing at my crazy whims, as if this is a game.

Well, heck, if it ain't, then,

What's the point of living? I boldly and sadly proclaim.

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Even if you're not here, Nothing,

I'll keep fighting every day to prove it.

To prove that we create our own destiny, or is it a creator?

Tell me, show me, I can sense you there. I'll do…

Anything.