So what I've learned this year…

Life hurts.

It hurts worse than anything

More than memories

More than pseudo lovers

It hurts.

An incomprehensible pain

No anecdotes nor lessons
Could have prepared us for

It's empty

It's dark

It's cruel

I've never felt more helpless

More depressed

And more worthless than ever before

But

I have found it isn't futile

I have found that I'm not alone

That a handful of friends can save a life

That they can spark something beautiful Inside you

A brilliant fire built from the hands

Of those who understand you

And through these darkened nights

It will burn

It will warm your heart and give meaning

In the darkness

To burn and prove over and over

You are not alone

I've learned that my friends saved my life

I've learned that I'm not alone