I hate my memories

When they bring me down

I hate my memories

When they spiral

I hate my memories

When they kill my mood

I hate my memories

When they fuel my despair

I hate my memories

When they fool me into thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking and

They break the walls I am trying to build

They burn the bridges I worked so hard to keep

They make me want to hate joyfully

They make me want to hurt me and them

How else can I feel about a process of keeping records

How else am I to feel about a phenomenon that builds personality

It can

Cure

Hide

Break

Turn

Make you feel

Whole

Empty

Hopeful

Worthless

Have you

Believe

Fail

Run

Overbearing

I am tired of

Carring

Hating

Loving

Being

I hate it when my memories are

Mine

Omnipotent

Thereā€¦

Breaking me

Alone with me

And only

Me

I want to be

Done

Not

Apart from

What makes me

Me

I need

Help

A path

Reckoning

I hate my memories

When they find me

Hoping

Happy

Content

I hate my memories

When they have me hating

Everyone

Everything

Myself