I don't know where to begin. There's so much still left unsaid after everything.
I feel like nothing has ever been completely over between the two of us. I won't let it go and you won't either. At least that's how it feels to me.
I know what you said and I completely respect that - I still do. It's why there are times I choose not to see you. And times when I say I'm moving on. It's not that I want to - I don't want to at all. It's the farthest thing from what I want. But I choose it because of what you said.
There's one thing though that has never made sense to me - your actions. You say you don't care but you act like you do. I see it in everything you do when you're around me - how your eyes drift to me, how you always want to be near, all of your questions like you want to know the real me.
Maybe it's all in my head, maybe I tend to misinterpret things and the truth is that I really should just let you go, let you live your life and be happy. Even if that means I'm not in it.
But I still care about you.
Everything I said a year and half ago is still the truth today.
If you changed your mind, if you lied about your feelings - all you have to do is just come out and tell me that. I'm a much more forgiving person than you're giving me credit for here.
Friend me, message me, come see me - do something to let me know.
But if you don't want that, then please stop with being so kind to me - stop showing you care. And I'll leave you alone - I'll go and I won't come back. I won't bother you anymore, if that's what you want.
I still care about you, Taylor.
I think I always will.
I don't know how to let that go, even after all of this time has passed. No one compares and I'm still so stuck on you.
There's so much more I feel I need to say but I don't know how to say it in a letter. I don't know how to even begin.
But maybe these words are all that matter, maybe it's enough.
I wish I could say this in person, all of it. But maybe it's best left this way - unseen, unsaid, unread.
Maybe I should just let you move on.
Because in the end, even my feelings don't matter.
I just care about yours.