She knocked on the door and let out the breath she had been holding for the last minute

Hey guys :) so this is my third posting, but my first novel :) the other two were about O-Town so if any of u want to go read them please review because I am addicted to reviews :). There will be roughly 5 chapters to this story, but I won't post the next chapter until I have at least 5 reviews for the chapter before it. is that so unreasonable?? I hope not. Anyway read on and please review - good or bad. Oh and thanx gleni - if u didn't take so long writing I wouldn't have written this lol

She knocked on the door and let out the breath she had been holding for the last minute. 'I can do this.' She said to herself. This was probably the hardest thing she would ever have to do. And when she did her life may never be the same.

Within seconds the door opened and she found herself staring into the brown eyes of her Spanish friend.

"Jordan hey!" he muttered and gave her a hug before letting her through the door. He shared the house with her best-friend Alex, along with two other guys. They were a fun bunch to hang about with and in the three years she had known them they had become her closest friends.

"Hey Rico. How you been? Is Alex around?"

"I'm good! Not much happened since yesterday." He paused to chuckle and then answered her second question. "Alex is in his room, I think Mickey is in there as well. He stayed in there last night cos he saw a spider." Jordan laughed as she made her way up to the room she knew like her own.

"Alex? Are u decent?" she stood outside his bedroom door, and realized she was stalling. They had been best friends for five years and she had never waited to be invited in.

"Jordan?… Yeah. That's never bothered you before though." She smiled, counted to three and pushed open the door. She smiled when she saw Alex lying on his bed with a book in his hand. His floppy blonde curls covering his green eyes. She also noticed a makeshift bed on the floor with her other friend Mickey lying listening to music on his earphones.

Alex smiled when he saw her and sat up putting his book to the side.

"So what's up?" he asked and Jordan just stood there. She had to have this conversation, herself and Gillian had worked it all out, and this was a move she had to make. She turned to Mickey and gently nudged him with her foot.

"Mic? Can u …um… leave for a minute? I just want to talk to Alex."

"Sure, no worries. I'll just go see if the spider has left my room." She laughed and he gave her a quick hug before leaving and closing the door.

"So what is it you wanted to talk about?" Alex asked. He had a strange feeling about this. First of all she asked to come into his room and second she asked Mickey to leave. This wasn't like her and he was worried. He watched her long black hair wave across her middle back as she walked to the window, then abruptly she turned to him.

"So it's like my birthday in two weeks."

"Yeah… I already have your gift and everything." She smiled, he was always prepared, although she doubted he would be prepared for what she had to say.

"I'll be twenty."

"I know. I'm only a year older… look Jor? Where is this going? I'm a little confused."

"Sorry… just the thing is… I'll be twenty in two weeks and I'll still be…well I'll still be a virgin." She turned back to the window and felt him come up behind her. They both stood facing the window, avoiding the other's gaze. For their own reasons this was a difficult subject for them both.

"Is it getting you down? Cos you know it is good that your waiting for someone you love."

"That's just it Alex. I'm not. I'm not waiting for love. I'm waiting because I'm scared." She sighed and he placed a hand on her shoulder.

"Jordan I don't know what to say, I mean we never talk about this side of things. You talk to Gillian about this usually."

"I know… but this time it involves you." She winced waiting for his reply, a look of confusion played on her friend's face, yet they both continued to look out of the window.

"How? I hate to be repetitive but I'm confused here." She turned then surprising him and looked him straight in the eye. Her heat beating a million beats per second and her blue eyes shaking slightly.

"I want you to be the first person I have sex with." She heard him take a deep intake of breath and wished she could take it back. But it was done now. He couldn't believe what he had heard. That was definitely not what he had expected. He turned away and was silent for a moment. Sitting on the edge of his iron-framed double bed, he lifted his head and looked at her.

"I can't."

'Oh no!' she thought to herself. 'This can't be happening. I have just made a total fool of myself.' She sat down on Mickey's pile of sheets and shut her eyes to what had just happened.

They sat in silence for nearly five minutes. Jordan with her eyes closed and her legs crossed. And Alex with his arms on his knees holding his head. 'This is just so confusing' he kept saying to himself. 'If only she knew.'

"Why?" he was shaken from his thoughts and looked up to see her eyes glistening with tears. He hated to do this to her, she wouldn't understand if he told her the truth.

"Jordan!" he groaned she knew this meant he didn't want to answer. But she had to know. She had staked a lot on this, and she couldn't leave until she knew if all hope was lost.

"Why Alex? Just tell me and I'll leave." He knew he had to say something. And he knew it couldn't be the truth.

"Ok. Jordan… we have been best - friends for like five years. You're like family. If I slept with you… well it would be like sleeping with my sister."

"Oh!" she whispered, it appeared that the worst had happened. "Well that's ok Alex really. I'll just ask someone else." She stood up and held back the tears in her eyes. She made her way to the door without looking at him.

"What! Just like that? You'll go and ask someone else." He stood up and pulled at her arm so that she faced him.

"Yes. I would have liked it to have been you, you're the best friend I have, but I have other options." 'Why am I doing this? Why am I lying? Why am I playing it cool?' she asked herself. She had to be strong and she had to pretend that their friendship hadn't changed.

"Like what?" his tone had raised and slight anger was slipping through, both were surprised at his tone.

"Like I can ask Mickey, or Rico or even Joe."

"Don't be silly they won't want to sleep with you." As soon as the words left his mouth he knew they had come out wrong. And he knew they had had the worst effect when he heard Jordan gasp and saw the anger flash in her eyes.

"Oh really? So just because the great Alex Maxell doesn't find me desirable, that means no-one will."

"I didn't mean it like that!" they were standing head to head, and glaring angrily at each other.

"Like hell you did! Well forget you Alex! I'm going now and next time you see me, I won't be a virgin and I would have been well and truly desired." She stomped out of the room, out of the house and into her car. 'Well and truly desired? Where do I come out with this crap?' she laughed at herself but her laughter soon turned to tears.

Back at the house, Alex lay on his bed and cringed at what had just happened. 'How could I have handled it so badly?' Just then he heard a knock at the door and Mickey stuck his red head around the door.

"Wanna talk?" he asked and Alex nodded.

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