Choking on Air

You've hurt me so many times,
Yet I keep coming back,
To your arms.
Love kills those who need it,
And heals those who hate it,
But what does it matter now?
It's getting harder to breathe,
Like choking on air.
I'm not quite sure why,
Or how,
But I know I need it to survive,
And it kills me inside.
But what does it matter now?
I feel the holes inside of me,
That I could not replace.
There's a gaping wound,
Where you used to be.
And I won't fill it again,
I can't fill it ever again,
But what does it matter now?
You were there to break me down,
But where were you when,
I needed you?
I needed you so badly some days
You're gone and I'm here
It's what I've always feared
But what does it matter now?
It's getting harder to breathe,
Like choking on air.
You're love destroys me,
But I take it in with each and every tear.
It's like choking on air,
And I can't get away,
But it never mattered anyway.