Fear
By Tara Nicole Walker
9/19/2001
Dedicated to James Gamble II, Charles Lauderdale and my other friends who are threatened by this tragedy.
Filled with fear for those I love,
Needing protection from above.
What can I do with all this fear?
I want so bad to break down in tears.
I'm scared for me,
And I'm scared for them.
I'm scared that their lives,
Just might end.
I'm scared they might,
Leave me here alone.
I'm scared my world might turn to stone.
Hoping against hope for this not to be,
I don't want my loved ones to be forced to leave.
Tears stream down my cheeks as I helplessly scream,
"No, please, don't leave me."
I'm scared for me,
And I'm scared for them.
I want them to live,
They're my best friends.
I want them to stay here,
Safe in my arms.
I don't want to look up,
And remember them by the stars.
My tortured fingers claw at my shell of helplessness,
No, I've decided, my soul shall never find rest.
Tears of blood and screams of pure pain,
Will I ever see my loved ones again?
I'm scared for me,
And I'm scared for them.
Wanting them safe,
Is not a sin.
But is wanting them for me,
A selfish act?
I want them safe,
Now that's a fact.
I tear at my hair as tears, like a river, flow,
I wallow in such pain that no one could know.
Fear overshadows me like a restless spirit,
My inward cries are so loud I'm sure somebody can hear it.
I'm scared for me,
And I'm scared for them.
Why all of this pain?
Will it ever end?
Can some good,
Come from this pain?
Or shall it just,
Drive me insane?
I'm holding on,
For more than one.
Supporting the weight,
Of what seems like tons.
There's a reason I do,
I'm sure there is.
Am I holding on,
For one last kiss?
No, I'm holding on,
For my friends,
Trying to keep them,
From the end.