I Can't Be Saved

"I'm so gone and it's so cold
I stand alone, just another lost soul,
I hope you know not the loss I feel
The loss inside that will never heal.
Once was content, but it was torn from me,
I hide it behind and push it inside so deep for no one to see,
You saw, you found, and you tried to peek,
Your efforts were beautiful and valiant, but I was too bleak.
I got mad with your love and threw it away,
Always I regret, just wish it had stayed,
This is my Hell and I'm in it too far to be saved"
-Ran Dixon
(To Teresa)