I sit here
night after night
staring at a blank screen
wondering how it could have gone
how it might have been.

if I had just held back my tongue
and left certain
unpalatable truths unsaid
would I now be in the midst
of happy people instead?

would I now be happier
if I had just let
things slide and go
will I ever get the
chance to know?

sad and lonely though it is
I took the right path
as I had been taught
without a deceitful
truthless thought.

and now I know I shall
forever more
pay the price
for being honest
instead of nice.