"I CUT AGAIN"

© 2001 Ginger

i cut again
to make sure i could still feel
to make sure everything was the real deal
to keep myself from feeling ill
i cut again
to show my beauty
to speak my feelings on my skin
to keep my resistance from wearing thin
i cut again
to make everything alright
to make sure i was still alive
to assure myself that i could survive another fight
i cut again
to make sure you feel the pain
to keep myself from the end
to make sure my soul was still within me
i cut again
to make myself not feel filthy
to assure myself everything was peachy
to keep myself from falling apart at the seams
i cut again
to make myself feel nifty
to assure myself that i was needed
to show myself that i was loved even though i already was
i cut again
no matter what you said
i needed it more and more
everyday
it was part of me
didnt you see?
something that helped me
be free
i cut again
because i needed to feel
becuase i needed to fullfill
because i needed the pain
because i needed to... again