I won't Remember

I can't push my weight around,
don't really want to.
Could I end up being the bad guy,
don't really want to.
I saw her today, I think I'm over it,
I didn't feel the thoughts I once thought.
A downward spiral, not going down.
I could sing, I could dance,
but to what ovation.
There would be none.
My own digust is self made,
Born of life.
To bad I can't get over myself.
Thoughts late at night, that will last forever.
but I won't remember them tomorrow.