~~~~~~~~~Waiting/Without You~~~~~~~~~

Someone made a joke today
She asked if you were dead.
As my friend told me, we were laughing-
Then this thought entered my head.
New Years' brought to mind my future,
And it turned my heart to lead.

In the corner there's a black hole
Always tugging at my mind;
Most days I can just ignore it
And leave those dark thoughts behind,
But today I am without you;
Evil terrors cloud my mind

Maybe I'm jsut being crazy
I know that you're fine, you're alive
But I'm panicking, I need to see you;
This plant, without sun, cannot thrive.
Deep in my heart, I've admitted:
Without you, I cannot survive.

I guess that I need to hear you,
Desperately seeking your smile,
That beautiful moment of suger
You give to me once in a while,
Your tender, sweet, heavenly whispers...
It's always your numer I dial.

So what can I do to be near you,
When you're miles and miles away?
This necklace you gave me I treasure,
And keep near me all night and all day,
But a small thing like that's just enough to
Keep me up and lead my mind astray.

I don't know what I'd do... if I lost you?
My mind won't entertain such a thought
That my hopes and my dreams and our promise
Could all suddenly just come to naught.
Still I find myself lost in emotion,
In this nightmare I'd always fought.

I am glad that you don't see me crying;
The last thing I want is you sad.
It's just that I wish you were with me,
To make so much good from my bad.
Maybe you'll come back tomorrow
To answer the longings I've had.

Yes, someday you will once more be here,
On that hope, on that dream I rely.
As I sit here, my heart ever wishing,
For that one day, as time passes by,
When I shall cease my woe and my waiting,
And into your loving arms fly.


~Neko4~
January 2002