I know its hard sometimes for you to understand me
When my hand
Spread wide open
Is so large against your own.
And I know sometimes it's hard for you to hear me
While you skip off to play in your fairy land of crystals
And pearly sea spray foam.
But I'm asking you now with all my heart
I'll try to hide my tears before they start…
Just please sit awhile and listen to me.
For you have infinity to play and run
In warm kissed fields
And golden sun…
While I just have this moment.
A moment to tell you how much I still and always love you-
Your beautiful blond hair and shining smile.
A moment to tell you a lifetime of love-
Oh God why does this have to seem so final?
You always did jump up and run,
As if the world was waiting for you to shine
To reach up to the stars
Conquer the world
And turn cartwheels
At all the same time.
But sit and listen for awhile now
Try to ignore my sighs-
For through it all
I never really was good at good-byes.
You may open your eyes wide in laughter
And giggle as you skip away without a backward glance
But what I say is true
Because you gave me a second chance.
A chance to realize what life truly is
Beyond traffic jams and taxes due
A world seen for what it really is-
A world seen by you.
For in all your innocence you understood
Things that we have forgot
How magical summer truly is-
Whether we are six years old or not.
For you I'll press my nose against the glass more
And lean too far over the rail.
I'll remember to dream in color
And put more faith in fairy tales.
I'll ask more questions of everyone
And pick more flowers just because-
I'll remember to stand in front of the crowd instead of behind
And I'll always remember to skip a little instead of trudge.
So many, many little things
We lose when we begin to see right from wrong
Even though inside we know
Things truly aren't that clean cut all along.
I'll try not to judge on appearance
You always held your hand out to all-
And instead I'll smile and change their lives
Though it may seem very small.
And for those that will never understand
Their disapproving looks I'll learn to ignore
And I'll still run too fast and speak too loud
Because that's what you taught me living is for.
I want to take your hand right now
Its little surface rough with dirt
And kiss it with all your memories
As you are lain out in your lavender fairy tale skirt.
You can't understand why I can't now
Maybe it's better this way
Just remember me and my promise to keep you alive
Until my dying day.
Then we can be together again
And you can tell me all the fun you've had-
No, don't look at my face that way-
I can brush away a shimmering tear
But I'll really not that sad.
Her blue eyes smile in understanding
Prancing away, she lets meadow flowers beat at her skirt
I try to get up and walk away
But oh, how a crumbling heart hurts.
I watch as she grows dimmer
Picking her flowers
She holds them up to her summer sun
And as I stroke her flowers by a silent grave
I promise to give a little Julia to the world…
My life is not yet done.