The pressure mounts and days go by
And I'm left standing, asking why
I can't take all the loneliness
I thought I was stronger than this
Am I not all I thought I was?
I guess I couldn't admit it 'cause

I'm a fucking disgrace
Not good enough to show my face
I'm a fucking disgrace
Will you ever look in my face?
Are my eyes still true?
Is my life still free?
Am I still what you wanted me to be?

My innocence has long been gone
The night won't end, there is no dawn
I have to find someone to blame
Because I can't accept the shame
I'm just too afraid to believe
That it's my fault each time you leave
But in my heart, I know it's true
I can't keep living hurting you

And I can't live to hurt myself...

I'm a fucking disgrace
Not good enough to show my face
I'm a fucking disgrace
Will you ever look in my face?
But I'm still here
Will I ever learn
Why each time I'm alone I burn?

I brought this down upon myself
But I can't get out without help
I need you...

I'm cold and empty in this place
My heart is now a hollow space
I pushed out all the room I had
To love, to feel, to just be mad
But depression is always there
It fills the void and brings despair
I understood what living was
But I cannot go back because

I'm a fucking disgrace
[My innocence has long been gone]
I'm such a disgrace
[I have to find someone to blame]
Are my eyes still true?
[I brought this down upon myself]
Can you see me through?
[But I can't get out without help]