I am Eva Eva is me Do you get it I am me I am me Eva is me Do you hear me? Are you listening are you? Do you know who I am? Do you know I exist?

Her mind was a torrent of emotions, feelings, confused thoughts all mixed and jumbled like the aftermath of a hurricane. Dark, rambling corridors of her mind dimly lit, casting long, black shadows of hidden doubts and insecurities. No sense of self. Constant, persistent self-assurances echoed in her head like a demented mantra whispered over and over and over again…Yet a perpetual and unexplainable fear gnawed at her, eating her away…overpowering her.

No no no I don't want to I don't I don't I hate it I hate this I hate you I hate you Leave me alone All alone please please please please…

Dark desires, inhibitions, cravings, secret pleasures…hidden behind the fragile walls of abstinence threatening to overcome and burst out at the most unexpected moments. Her head was an unsolvable labyrinth full of twists and turns which seemed to never end. Misery, depression and distress tainted the crumbling borders and crooked lanes of her eternal maze. Raven skies streaked with angry crimson clouds hung ominously over her warped idea of a fairy tale land. A ruined castle of half-forgotten dreams and long ago aspirations tethered precariously at the edge of a cliff, smeared in dirt and grime, threatening to succumb to demise…all hope nearly washed away by the constant storms raging in her head.

Who are you and what are you doing Stop it I just can't I just can't help it Stop staring Stop stop stop Stop laughing and pointing and whispering and laughing and pointing and whispering…

Wild, half-formed, paranoid thoughts cluttered her mind threatening to overflow. Disembodied voices in her head. Laughing. Mocking. Tormenting her. Breaking her spiritually, mentally and in every way possible. They persisted relentlessly, refusing to cease. Tortured screams in her head, heard by none but only her. Killing her softly. Nothing more but an empty shell. Hollow. Soulless. And those voices…pushing her to the edge.

Help me help me Take me away I hate you all I HATE you all take me away from this hell take me please please…Look, Mamma I'm flying i'm flying…and I'm going…going…gone…

The castle of dreams toppled and shattered.

Overhead the dark storm clouds cleared.